I wish I had enough strength.

[Jamesun]

I just think I've given up, no matter how many therapies and psychologists I've gone to, it's like there's something wrong with me and it's no use. I think that every day is worse than the last, it's like life hates me. If only I had the strength to grab a rope and hang myself once and for all, if only I were strong and not a coward and useless, I would like to have an accident and die maybe it would be easier. If only for a moment I could stop feeling or have a little peace.

 

[Worndown]

Your inability to ctb is normal., not weakness. It is the most difficult thing you will ever do, if you do it.
Not everyone does. Some learn coping strategies. Some recover, some do not.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand that it's so dreadful suffering in this existence but anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you search for.