L
LittleJem
Visionary
- Jul 3, 2019
- 2,513
I'm just venting. I don't know how to take another day of this depression. I'm maybe Day 17 of a new medication. I cannot bear another day. I haven't got out of bed for about 5 days, can barely eat, and all I do is obsess about suicide. Yesterday, I watched the hanging videos for the first time. Today so far I have eaten one yoghurt and now I feel sick.
I have to move house and sort my stuff out before CTB, but really I just want to do it NOW. I wish someone could just come and kill me asap.
Just as an update - I could pay 5K or 10K. Am in London.
It's just how to give someone the money and guarantee your own death at the same time!!
I have to move house and sort my stuff out before CTB, but really I just want to do it NOW. I wish someone could just come and kill me asap.
Just as an update - I could pay 5K or 10K. Am in London.
It's just how to give someone the money and guarantee your own death at the same time!!
Last edited: