I wish I could make my loved ones understand

[BRAINWORMS]

I'm lucky enough to have had so much love in my life from friends and family, but I'm so exhausted living for other people when my anxiety levels are so high that it feels like I might as well be alone. If my physical body were to reflect how I feel emotionally, I'd be covered in blistering sunburns raw to the touch. I feel like I'm burning and even a breeze is enough to make me scream. I have SN that I've been keeping since 2020 but I'm scared it oxidized and that it won't be strong enough to kill me. I'll wait until I have absolutely nothing to lose by trying; right now, surviving an attempt would destroy the people around me even worse than a successful attempt, and I'd still be around to have to pick up the pieces after.

(I might look back at this post later and cringe at the melodrama but right now I'm in a lot of pain for no goddamn reason and don't know how else to express it. Thank you for being here, SaSu.)

 

[Sans]

I wish I had loved ones.

 

[dontwakemeup]

Do you take medicine for your anxiety? It sounds like you're having a tough time, I'm sorry. If you have medicine, try taking it now so your body can relax. I suffer from anxiety and it always feels like I'm going to have a heart attack. Try to watch a funny movie or listen to some calming music

 

[resurgence]

take anxiety meds, it will lessen how bad it feels. if you are not prescribed them you absolutely should be
you're never gonna make loved ones understand. maybe someone thats like not a direct family member and is like ur bestie of years or a partner, but the family that raised you? never

 

[grungy自殺]

If the love ones were the ones that we expected in our worlds (basically idealized)

then perhaps it wouldn't be terrible to stay here

Only if you had already been with them since the beginning of your vulnerable life

 

[Crow_88]

I wish I had loved ones.

Yeah this

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of it all, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, it really sounds like you've suffered a lot. But anyway I wish you the best.