I wish I could just stop breathing

[bl33ding_heart]

I'm very sorry if I'm posting too much, I usually don't but I'm just in a lot of pain right now and currently crying my eyes out. :/

I'm seriously so done with people, and so done with life in general. No matter how honest or heartfelt I try to be I always end up getting used or hurt in some way. And because I have bpd it feels like being hit by a train.

It's happened many times before, but this time it is especially bad. It's by someone I trusted and loved. And there's only so many times you can go through something before you're at your wits end.

I'm just so done, and I wish I could die right now. I'm so fucking exhausted and I genuinely believed I could be on my road to recovery. But I just don't think I have it in me anymore.

Even if I am lucky enough to recover, I know for a fact this will happen again and again. And I don't wanna be stuck in some never ending loop of having to try and get my very long gone sanity back again.

I'm just so tired, and I wish things were different. I really do. But fate is not on my side. So death probably will have to be.

 

[Nolongerlive]

I hope you will find peace among all the struggle you facing.

 

[Off_Switch]

Post all you want. We are here to listen. I agree 100% and hoping a Fent OD can achieve this unconsciously for me.