Barteljaap
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- Jan 17, 2021
- 78
Poison and hanging just seem so complicated. I'd be afraid to mess up. Also, ordering a poison online is absolutely not an option as my family could get it first and uncover the plan. For hanging, I'd have to do it in a forest or something and what if my body wasn't found for several days (that's a possibility with the C19 lockdown)? After a few days the corpse could be rotten and picked apart by scavengers. I'm quite tall so don't think I'd be able to do a full hanging indoors.
There's been a few high rise buildings going up in my city recently but I'm not sure if any are available to the public. Even if I can find one that is, getting myself to prepare is going to be difficult. Burning private stuff, deleting files from my laptop and especially giving away my money (don't have much but it's still something) feels very risky to do when the method of choice is something I could chicken out of at the last moment. I imagine doing it over and over again but I know that in a situation like that the emotions can be a lot stronger than you can possibly be ready for in advance.
There's been a few high rise buildings going up in my city recently but I'm not sure if any are available to the public. Even if I can find one that is, getting myself to prepare is going to be difficult. Burning private stuff, deleting files from my laptop and especially giving away my money (don't have much but it's still something) feels very risky to do when the method of choice is something I could chicken out of at the last moment. I imagine doing it over and over again but I know that in a situation like that the emotions can be a lot stronger than you can possibly be ready for in advance.
