Venting i wish for the comfort that others receive

[hotelandrea]

often, when someone is on their deathbed (in the instance of old age or perhaps terminal illness), surrounded by family, there will be gentle encouragement to let go.

phrases such as "it's okay, you can go now." i know i've even personally done this when having pets euthanized, but i've witnessed it with human family members too.

i understand that i can't expect anyone in my life to say that or agree with the decision to ctb. i know this. i know that there is not a single person that i hold dear that will give me this comfort. but that's why this is simply a vent.

anyone have any thoughts on this, or similar feelings?

 

[Cyc]

This is so relatable. Most people can't empathise because they've never felt suicidal before. I feel quite similarly to you; I want someone to accept my decision and let me die in peace, but I know that won't happen.

I've given up on trying to live tbh. I'm too exhausted

 

[Dreamwalker]

Yes !! I resonate with this a lot; I think it's part of the reason why I don't think I could ever ctb without a partner, just somebody there to watch/join me on a new chapter. I'm sorry that you feel like you can't find that comfort currently, but I hope you find peace either way :)

 

[hotelandrea]

This is so relatable. Most people can't empathise because they've never felt suicidal before. I feel quite similarly to you; I want someone to accept my decision and let me die in peace, but I know that won't happen.

I've given up on trying to live tbh. I'm too exhausted

i totally get what you're saying. no matter how well i try to articulate my mental suffering, no one ever seems to grasp just how bad it is. it's not some minor inconvenience or an obstacle that's easy to overcome. i feel like if others could truly live in my head for a day, they'd get it.

 

[Cyc]

i totally get what you're saying. no matter how well i try to articulate my mental suffering, no one ever seems to grasp just how bad it is. it's not some minor inconvenience or an obstacle that's easy to overcome. i feel like if others could truly live in my head for a day, they'd get it.

Exactly it's a constant struggle that is very difficult to control. For me, it's difficult because I've been through things that the average person can't imagine, so finding someone who can show me empathy is hard

 

[jerkbybile]

this is such a sweet and comforting concept. i hope you find what you are looking for, so you can relax too.