I wish both my parents will die. they are the main reason i want to ctb.

[Limbo]

I'll pm with you.
Tomorrow, I am going to do another thread and go to bed.
But I do want to pm with you.
I'll send you a pm tomorrow morning it's late in here

ok

 

[worldexploder]

@Limbo if you ever want to talk you can PM me. Not sure how good of a company I'll be since I'm drunk off my ass but I'm here to support you.

 

[Limbo]

@Limbo if you ever want to talk you can PM me. Not sure how good of a company I'll be since I'm drunk off my ass but I'm here to support you.

Im not the op haha but thanks

 

[worldexploder]

Im not the op haha but thanks

Sorry I'm very very drunk. Trying my best here but failing miserably.

 

[Putridsoul]

I humbly think the solution for you is not CTB; it is to actually comfront your parents with all the anger you show here and leave home. Try getting a job in wherever, it doesn't to be anything fancy and get the fuck out your parents' home. Anything will be better if it doesn't make you want to die.

 

[Wolfjob_dayjob]

My parent lives barely on the border of my country, hundreds of miles away and it IS like they are dead. Outta sight out of mind and all.. If making a plan to get out will "save" you maybe try that first. You've only your life to lose, but probably in worse more depressing conditions if you're seriously financially dependent on them. I also despise my biological family and empathize in any case.

 

[Metavoid]

I went through University studying my ass off and working. I now have a degree in science and I can't get a job in the field. These days connections and experience are more valued than a degree. If you don't have those, it's pointless. What a scam, waste of time and money. Although uni were the best years of my life in terms of fun and socializing, the actual University bit was pointless

 

[InsidiousDormouse]

Sounds like you'd actually ENJOY being a security guard or a hotel receptionist. Both are worthy jobs, both of them earn money. My husband has worked bum jobs in factories all of his life but it has payed for the stuff he has always wanted, computer games etc, and a house.

My dream job if I could ever have one would be delivering parcels lol, I want to learn to drive, maybe one day, in the ideal world, sadly I do not intend to last that long.

Money means fuck all to me, I only ask for a few things, my computer, my internet connection, a bed, a sofa, a cooker, a fridge, perhaps a table to sit at and do my artwork etc, done. My biggest dread would be living in a big house, I couldn't manage it, I hate tons of space like that. If I won the lotto I think I'd buy a small house with a big garden, as I much prefer being outdoors.

When I first read this, I thought you were a teenager living at home, being lorded over by your parents, but you are a GROWN ADULT. Go and get yourself a job as a hotel receptionist or a security guard or a factory worker or whatever it is that pays your basic bills and puts a roof over your head, and get the fuck out of dodge. Your parents have NO legal jurisdiction over you now, cut them out of your life forever, maybe write a letter explaining why you're severing contact, and then move to a new city and start again.

These people are not worth the loss of your life, if that's the only reason.

 

[Suicide47]

I am 26 male.
My parents are both doctors.
They force me to study.
I hate studying, it's too stressful for me.
For them if you don't have a degree and if you don't earn a lot of money you are worst than a serial killer.
You are subhuman and have no right to exist.
They only care about academic and financialsuccess.
It's the only thing that matters to them.

Seriosuly and I am not joking, they would be more proud of me if I was a successful lawyer/doctor and so on and a serial killer who murdered 100 people than be a security guard or work as a hotel receptionist.

I am going to ctb because of them in the end of my semester in february.
I don't have the mental power to withstand another semester yet alone another 2.5 years of study.

They threatened me that if I quit university they will put me in a mental hospital and will not support me financially.

I am going ro ctb using charcoal in the woods and a car.

Oh I would LOVE to see the looks on their faces when you drop out, move on and give them a big fuck you. Before you ctb you need to at least do that. And I don't think they can throw you in a mental institution for that. I held a weapon up to my brothers neck and I punched my mom in the face because they didn't want me to leave the house. I did anyways and I'm still here. Just try it for now and see if it brings you any happiness. I would love to hear how you make out with that as well.

 

[Sayo]

Thanks for trying to help me man.
But you don't understand.
I told them many times that it's too stressful for me and that I want to quit.
But it's so ingrained in them, it's like a robot that has a certain programming.
They told me if you quit studying we will put you in a mental institution.
About suicidal thoughts, I am afraid to tell them that because then they will also stop supporting me and will try to hospitalize me for life.

You should probably look up how psychiatric hospitalisation works where you live legally. In most places even if your parents somehow succeeded in having you admitted on false grounds and you did not convince the psychiatrists to release you, you would be able to appeal as it becomes increasingly involved legally to detain you.

Generally if you aren't a threat to others they want to get rid of you as soon as they're convinced you aren't going to harm yourself.

 

[Roph]

My mother is responsible for screwing up my life beyond repair. But I don't want to leave this world with grudges. So I've forgiven her... and I'm ready to ctb.