migimortis
Love It Or Waste It.
- Jan 15, 2024
- 149
I've wasted my life. There's no one on this planet I hate more than myself. Every single opportunity I've ever had I've thrown away. Every relationship I've ever had I've sabotaged. I have nothing and no one, yet I continue to feel sorry for myself. How utterly fucking PATHETIC. I've done this to myself, I can't blame my parents, I can't even blame god, because I'M the fucking problem. ME. This WORTHLESS, PATHETIC sack of SHIT. Instead of overcoming my problems, I've learned to live with them. Instead of growing and evolving, I've just made ENDLESS excuses for why it's OK to remain the same, for why it's OK to be a pathetic piece of SHIT, and now my life has stagnated. Now I have nothing, nothing but contempt for myself, because I know how much I've fucked my life up. Because now I don't even have a life. But if I'm the problem, then I'm the solution - no one can save me but myself. I have nothing to lose anymore. Nothing. I can't allow my life to end this way, homeless, begging, starving to death on the streets. I had big dreams as a kid but I did absolutely nothing to pursue them. Nothing. Literally wasted away inside my room for years, hoping something would magically change, praying I would be saved. But I won't. I waited years, and years, and years, and years. But nothing improved. It only got worse. I fell further and further behind my peers, to the point I don't have peers anymore, I just have me. I've fucked my own life up so much that I've ended up on a suicide forum, scorning my own continued existence, and squandering whatever potential and fortune life has granted me.
Enough is enough. No more holding back. I am ready. My life begins now.
I WILL realize my potential.
I Will Succeed.
Enough is enough. No more holding back. I am ready. My life begins now.
I WILL realize my potential.
I Will Succeed.