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Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
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I am going to kill myself next week because I have no hope my tuition fees problem will be resolved anymore and I am going to lose my university place, a place i worked hard to get. I was really enjoying my degree subject and all the opportunities the university offered me.
The worst thing about my fianacial issue is all my life my grandmother and mother always helped the relatives and their kids and grandkids with their fianacial problems but NONE of these relatives ever help nor care if my family have problems. I have relative who can easily write a cheque which would end my problem within minutes but this relative chooses never to help struggling family members and instead looks his nose down upon everyone. He is one of those rags to riches rich people. I have other relatives who are happy to give money away to help relatives ie with a business venture, property investment or money for some kind of help in an emergency but some reason these relatives don't care about my family and see other family members are real family.
When I openly tell my family the truth about how selfish and selfcentred our relatives are my grandmother and mother make me feel guilty for daring to tell the truth nobody else does. During the Christmas holidays my grandmother was even laughing at me and calling me "a problem" for complaining about my family sending money overseas to relatives when was explaining to another guest in our house the problem I had previously over tuition fees.
In my suicide note I will it clear to my grandmother and mother my relatives are 100% the reason why I made the decision to kill myself. All my life my relatives contributed to making me feel unloved, and outsider and the reason for my need to belong they failled to provide it. I hate my grandmother and mother for always forcing me to see these relatives overseas and giving me the worst summers of my life as a teenager.
For me losing my university spot was the only good thing i had going for me. I have no career and no partner. I will it clear in my suicide note this event was the final straw for years I have been suffering depression, anxiety and an eating disorder. I am done fighting.
My family thought I was going through a pharae when I said I hated the relatives when I kill myself they will believe me when I said I truly hated being related to these people.
The worst thing about my fianacial issue is all my life my grandmother and mother always helped the relatives and their kids and grandkids with their fianacial problems but NONE of these relatives ever help nor care if my family have problems. I have relative who can easily write a cheque which would end my problem within minutes but this relative chooses never to help struggling family members and instead looks his nose down upon everyone. He is one of those rags to riches rich people. I have other relatives who are happy to give money away to help relatives ie with a business venture, property investment or money for some kind of help in an emergency but some reason these relatives don't care about my family and see other family members are real family.
When I openly tell my family the truth about how selfish and selfcentred our relatives are my grandmother and mother make me feel guilty for daring to tell the truth nobody else does. During the Christmas holidays my grandmother was even laughing at me and calling me "a problem" for complaining about my family sending money overseas to relatives when was explaining to another guest in our house the problem I had previously over tuition fees.
In my suicide note I will it clear to my grandmother and mother my relatives are 100% the reason why I made the decision to kill myself. All my life my relatives contributed to making me feel unloved, and outsider and the reason for my need to belong they failled to provide it. I hate my grandmother and mother for always forcing me to see these relatives overseas and giving me the worst summers of my life as a teenager.
For me losing my university spot was the only good thing i had going for me. I have no career and no partner. I will it clear in my suicide note this event was the final straw for years I have been suffering depression, anxiety and an eating disorder. I am done fighting.
My family thought I was going through a pharae when I said I hated the relatives when I kill myself they will believe me when I said I truly hated being related to these people.
