Story I went to the woods yesterday to find a good spot for hanging

[again_noidea]

I know that the time i have to go comes closer, so yesterday i took some tramadol and chose a nice, somewhat unusual playlist on my mobile phone and got on my bicycle and drove to the about 40 minutes to the nearby woods. I had my rope and a knife with me. I know the area a bit because i grew up nearby. I went for a specific spot that always pops up in my mind when I think about my farewell. When I reached the spot, I made sure that it was truly out of sight, so nobody on the main road will be able to spot me. Of course, I'll do it in the middle of the night, so the chances of being found too early go against zero, but nevertheless. Most threes there are beeches with no side branches, at least none that I can reach to fix my rope on. There are also some small oak trees, which I like very much. I swung my rope over a branch, fixed one end around my neck, and held the other in my hand to see how quickly I could go unconscious. I reached the point of vertigo and blurred vision, but I was too afraid of blacking out because the terrain there is quite steep and i would have fallen a fair and probably crashed against a trunk, probably with my face. Anyway, I got that strange feeling where your legs are trembling uncontrollably, and you feel this strange euphoria pulsing though your body. Before i left, i tried different versions on about three different trees. I got tiered, and my throat began to hurt a bit from trying, so I left. Well, next step to try to fall unconscious, but I will try this at home where I can securely fall when I pass out. It was a day with complex feelings.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally like the sound of ctb in the woods, it is my ideal spot. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Taraxias]

I know that the time i have to go comes closer, so yesterday i took some tramadol and chose a nice, somewhat unusual playlist on my mobile phone and got on my bicycle and drove to the about 40 minutes to the nearby woods. I had my rope and a knife with me. I know the area a bit because i grew up nearby. I went for a specific spot that always pops up in my mind when I think about my farewell. When I reached the spot, I made sure that it was truly out of sight, so nobody on the main road will be able to spot me. Of course, I'll do it in the middle of the night, so the chances of being found too early go against zero, but nevertheless. Most threes there are beeches with no side branches, at least none that I can reach to fix my rope on. There are also some small oak trees, which I like very much. I swung my rope over a branch, fixed one end around my neck, and held the other in my hand to see how quickly I could go unconscious. I reached the point of vertigo and blurred vision, but I was too afraid of blacking out because the terrain there is quite steep and i would have fallen a fair and probably crashed against a trunk, probably with my face. Anyway, I got that strange feeling where your legs are trembling uncontrollably, and you feel this strange euphoria pulsing though your body. Before i left, i tried different versions on about three different trees. I got tiered, and my throat began to hurt a bit from trying, so I left. Well, next step to try to fall unconscious, but I will try this at home where I can securely fall when I pass out. It was a day with complex feelings.

I also looked at the woods yesterday and i think i found a tree brunch but it has to be tested if it can hold my weight .i am 140 kilos
Any advice you can give?

 

[drennedrat]

I'm sad because I thought I had a good spot picked out but I went there tonight and it was too close to a trail and I didn't know what knot to use. Idk where to go now. It's so frustrating I just want to be done without traumatizing my family.

 

[Worndown]

If you cannot reach a limb to test it's strength, throw a rope over it, hold both ends and see if it supports you.