I was set up to fail

[VerbalWinter]

I was born by two individuals that shouldn't have reproduced. I was adopted by my great grandmother along with my two brothers before I turned 1 because my parents were THAT bad. I still don't know what would have happened if my grandmother didn't take me in. Sadly, she passed in 2018 and my life has been hell since then. I've had to rely on my family after she died (never had a big family to begin with) and they all abandoned me. Now I'm pretty much all alone in a crisis situation where I can potentially become homeless with no one to call on for help. I always ask myself what is the point of being alive if you can't even have the basic necessities such as a place to live? I think having a decent family would solve most of my problems, but sadly I never had it. Something I wanted to do if I lived long enough is to create my own family and put them in a position where they would never have to deal with the shit I've been through. Hopefully things change for the better soon, and I can create my own family one day, but with the way my luck has been going, I don't know if I can bear this pain for much longer than I already have.

It sucks when you look at your friends and acquaintances and see that they pretty much had everything handed to them, while you're the only one in a fucked up predicament with nowhere to go or anyone to help. I don't know if it's me being insecure, but I feel like some of my friends look down on me for going through this, or they get tired of hearing me talk about my shitty situation. Idk what I want to do anymore, one day I'm in the verge of wanting to end it all and I think of scenarios on how I will go about ending it, and then the next I'm certain I that I don't want to really die and I just want to become free from this situation, thinking about all the cool video games and opportunities I will miss out on if I die early. It's confusing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. This life is so cruel and unfair, many people are disadvantaged right from the start through no fault of their own. I understand that it is hard to carry on when you are in so much pain, whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[lostautist]

I was adopted and my father was horrible... the rest of their family disowned us because my adopted mother was Japanese. I have no family or support structure so I kmow how hopeless that feels. My friends are too far away or they/re too self absorbed to notice. I hope the best for you.

 

[jimmy7754]

I am in the process of losing everything and I am so sorry your going through this. Unfortunately even someone like me who had opportunities can still feel terrible. I hope you find a way to a better situation.

 

[Why Not???]

I was born by two individuals that shouldn't have reproduced. I was adopted by my great grandmother along with my two brothers before I turned 1 because my parents were THAT bad. I still don't know what would have happened if my grandmother didn't take me in. Sadly, she passed in 2018 and my life has been hell since then. I've had to rely on my family after she died (never had a big family to begin with) and they all abandoned me. Now I'm pretty much all alone in a crisis situation where I can potentially become homeless with no one to call on for help. I always ask myself what is the point of being alive if you can't even have the basic necessities such as a place to live? I think having a decent family would solve most of my problems, but sadly I never had it. Something I wanted to do if I lived long enough is to create my own family and put them in a position where they would never have to deal with the shit I've been through. Hopefully things change for the better soon, and I can create my own family one day, but with the way my luck has been going, I don't know if I can bear this pain for much longer than I already have.

It sucks when you look at your friends and acquaintances and see that they pretty much had everything handed to them, while you're the only one in a fucked up predicament with nowhere to go or anyone to help. I don't know if it's me being insecure, but I feel like some of my friends look down on me for going through this, or they get tired of hearing me talk about my shitty situation. Idk what I want to do anymore, one day I'm in the verge of wanting to end it all and I think of scenarios on how I will go about ending it, and then the next I'm certain I that I don't want to really die and I just want to become free from this situation, thinking about all the cool video games and opportunities I will miss out on if I die early. It's confusing.

I feel your pain. I suffer through so much confusion of wanting to live or die. It's hell!

 

[Sam772]

the world is so fuked up, expecially when odds are stacked against you from birth, sometimes fucked up things happen to good people... we didnt even choose to be in this world, how fuckdup is that, im in a similar situation, im about to loose it all, i dont wana explain too much, my story is very sad and unfortunate to say the least, man i just hope for healing, love happiness and success to you, i just wish all your hearts desire come true, you dont deserve anything bad....i also feel im about to kill myself, i dont believe in hanging, got no funds for these things they recomend here

 

[Snake of Eden]

The infinite wisdom of divine forces… smh