Discussion I was going to ctb, but now I'm not. Would you?

[SamuelMortem]

I was going to ctb via partial hanging with a necktie, a slipknot, and some soap or oil (to make the necktie tighten more smoothly around my neck). I was talking to a friend (well, I guess the only good/actual friend I have) and they've convinced me, for now, not to ctb. Do you all think if you had the same good fortune as I do, an actual friend, they would be able to keep you from ctbing (at least for that moment and time)?

 

[s1mplem3]

I don't have family or friends, I still want to CTB.

 

[SamuelMortem]

I don't have family or friends, I still want to CTB.

I understand not having any, I didn't for a long time and only recently met my friend. However, the question for this is under the presumption that you did get lucky and find a good friend. Under that "if," do you still think you would ctb?

 

[faust]

I was talking to my friends yesterday and today. But cannot stay for too long. Friends won't be able to treat my mental illness, destroy everlasting existential crisis and solve my problems.

 

[Lostnotfound]

Only you can know what that friendship means to you. Only you know what other circumstances are leading you to want to ctb. Only you can know how you feel. There is nothing wrong with putting all plans on hold whilst you re-evaluate, after all once you are dead its too late to re-evaluate then. Take your time and think about it.

 

[Inferdan]

Can we need add an "unsure" option?

 

[s1mplem3]

I understand not having any, I didn't for a long time and only recently met my friend. However, the question for this is under the presumption that you did get lucky and find a good friend. Under that "if," do you still think you would ctb?

If I had anyone in my life that would care about me and my life, I wouldn't CTB then. I've spent whole my life like this and that's enough, I can't take anymore. I'm tired dreaming about the life I will never have.

 

[SamuelMortem]

Can we need add an "unsure" option?

Originally I purposely left that option out, but per your request I've added it.

 

[Inferdan]

Originally I purposely left that option out, but per your request I've added it.

Thank you, I really appreciate it, my friend

 

[Deleted member 14386]

Hypothetically if someone walked in on me or something I would not at that time ctb, it would be on my mind constantly though but I couldn't put someone through the pain of seeing it happen
edit: even if I was talking to someone on text and they knew my intent, I couldn't leave them hanging (pun totally intentional!)

 

[waterbottleman]

A friend couldnt prevent me from ctb.

However a girlfriend/lover/sex worker who I liked a lot and who adored me could prevent me from ctb.

Im friendless and for the most part okay with that. It's the lack of attention/affection from women that is killing me.

 

[your pathologist]

I've had a lot of friends over the years and my behavior has alienated them all from me. Mental illness makes you do things you'd never do, in your right mind... and just creates a lot of loneliness.
So to answer, i don't think so

 

[selfhater]

no one can prevents me from ctb at all no matter how close they are or how much i love them
nothing undo the pain

 

[Pryras]

Any friends in real life can't change my state of mind but can distract me temporarily to push things off. Honestly, whenever I'm feeling suicidal (literally minutes ago) I run here and everything slows down. My problems still exist but I feel comfortable being here helping someone else.

 

[LastRide]

I cannot answer that question, it really depends on the reason for you wanting to ctb....myself for example, I am not depressed and have no major other mental issues (I'm a bit crazy, but aren't we all?), but I am suffering from two debilitating chronic illnesses that there is no treatment for. The have become worse recently and I want to end my life before I become dependant on someone to help me put on my clothes ofr go to the bathroom....so no friend or other well-meaning soul would be able to talk me out of it, and if they were truly my friends, they would understand why I need to leave and just kiss me goodbye. At least I hope so. I'm not going to tell them so they don't feel guilty afterwards for not talking me out of ctb.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I get fairly suicidal from time to time and start planning but it doesn't last enough to go through SN regimen.

 

[Painless_end]

I have to escape somehow, if CTB is the only option then I'm going to have to do that

 

[LonelySoul]

I understand not having any, I didn't for a long time and only recently met my friend. However, the question for this is under the presumption that you did get lucky and find a good friend. Under that "if," do you still think you would ctb?

My good friend whom I have known for 29 years stops me from doing myself in. I would be worried about him when I exit this planet. He is Asperger's and he has no friends (apart from me) and even though he does not socialise or say he doesn't want people in his life, I would hate for him to be truly alone to face life entirely by himself. If something happened to him though, then that would be my cue to leave. I have always felt as though I do not fit into this life of mine. Always "on the outside, looking in" and this gets more apparent as each year approaches. Christmas is truly the worst time, as I am sure it is for many of us on here. That is when I feel more acutely alone than any other time of the year. My depression gets worse in the countdown towards Christmas, as I know that I will be spending it alone.

If I was lucky enough to meet another friend and the friendship flourished I would most likely still think of suicide, but whether I would choose to catch the bus, I couldn't say until it happens.