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Chronic

Chronic

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Jun 14, 2021
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Then I saw my new pain management doc and they refused to refill my marinol that was prescribed by the previous person at the clinic. 😭 Now I'm planning my death again. I wish people were kinder. I just want access to the medications that make life bearable for me.

Which method would you choose...

A - Overdose with an extreme amount of opioids mixed with other meds (DDMP2)

B - Carbon monoxide and nitrogen asphyxiation (80/20 tank with a regulator, medical mask, and hood)

C - Sodium Nitrite

D - Combination of the above
 
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Al_stargate

Al_stargate

I was once a pretty angel
Mar 4, 2022
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Sorry about your chronic pain. I can't imagine what you've been going through in your life. Having to be dependent on pain medication must be horrible. Hope it sorts itself out and you are not in pain.
 
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Shu

Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
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Then I saw my new pain management doc and they refused to refill my marinol that was prescribed by the previous person at the clinic. 😭 Now I'm planning my death again. I wish people were kinder. I just want access to the medications that make life bearable for me.

Which method would you choose...

A - Overdose with an extreme amount of opioids mixed with other meds (DDMP2)

B - Carbon monoxide and nitrogen asphyxiation (80/20 tank with a regulator, medical mask, and hood)

C - Sodium Nitrite

D - Combination of the above
Are you in the US?
 
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Chronic

Chronic

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Jun 14, 2021
74
Are you in the US?

Yep, in the USA and it's a constant struggle to get pain relief.
Have the supplies for A & B...just ordered C.
Could also use a gun but it seems to violent for me. I have hopes of a peaceful exit in my sleep.
 
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outrider567

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Apr 5, 2022
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Then I saw my new pain management doc and they refused to refill my marinol that was prescribed by the previous person at the clinic. 😭 Now I'm planning my death again. I wish people were kinder. I just want access to the medications that make life bearable for me.

Which method would you choose...

A - Overdose with an extreme amount of opioids mixed with other meds (DDMP2)

B - Carbon monoxide and nitrogen asphyxiation (80/20 tank with a regulator, medical mask, and hood)

C - Sodium Nitrite

D - Combination of the above
Medical mask? like N95?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry that you suffer so unbearably. Life is just so cruel and unfair, it is horrifying how our bodies are capable of torturing us so much. I hope that you find relief from your pain in whatever you decide to do, I wish you the best.
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
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Would you still want to go if you could get your pain relief?

I'm not in the US but have been told it's easy to get drugs from Mexico in the US? People go get them and sell them on?

Forgive me if this is untrue and my comments are unhelpful.
 
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Chronic

Chronic

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Would you still want to go if you could get your pain relief?

I'm not in the US but have been told it's easy to get drugs from Mexico in the US? People go get them and sell them on?

Forgive me if this is untrue and my comments are unhelpful.

Perhaps I would still want to go on but I am getting tired of being treated like a degenerate, addict, problem, etc by doctors, pharmacists, politicians, the media, and the general public. They expect me to be perfect and are far from it themselves. Every doctor has their own opinion and wants to dictate what meds I can or cannot have, I have random pill counts and urine tests, have to agree in a contract to do whatever the pain doc says including things like Thai-chi (not joking), the pharmacists also do not have my meds in stock frequently which means I have to miss dosages, the insurance companies balk on covering my meds, etc. I'm just tired of the nonsense and if I tried to obtain meds illegally I know it would be just as bad if not worse access. Thank for the question and thought, however.
Medical mask? like N95?
O2 mask for kevorkian's alt method...see *you don't know jack*
 
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September5th

September5th

You can get better. But the choice is always ours.
May 17, 2022
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The worst feeling in the world is when, after a lot of suffering, you finally start getting along, only to lose it all again. It's demoralizing.
Wish you well, bud
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
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Perhaps I would still want to go on but I am getting tired of being treated like a degenerate, addict, problem, etc by doctors, pharmacists, politicians, the media, and the general public. They expect me to be perfect and are far from it themselves. Every doctor has their own opinion and wants to dictate what meds I can or cannot have, I have random pill counts and urine tests, have to agree in a contract to do whatever the pain doc says including things like Thai-chi (not joking), the pharmacists also do not have my meds in stock frequently which means I have to miss dosages, the insurance companies balk on covering my meds, etc. I'm just tired of the nonsense and if I tried to obtain meds illegally I know it would be just as bad if not worse access. Thank for the question and thought, however.

O2 mask for kevorkian's alt method...see *you don't know jack*
This is just rubbish. You shouldn't have to go through this. No wonder you're fed up with it.
 
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