Venting I was doing better (antidepressants) until last week for no reason [crashout post lmao]

[intintint]

OMFGGG

I got help a few months ago and took some antidepressants and it actually worked for a while. I wanted to live, went out with ppl, was content, picked back old hobbies!!!
and randomly last week it started to go down, i tried to fight it.

And today the crash out started lmaoooo

i literally want to die again fuck life omg

Like it s crazy in just one week I went from "omg life is so nice im so excited for everything", to "fuck fuck fuck fuck plz god let me not wake up tomorrow"

literally wanna kms everything sucks i dont wanna do anything

I feel so lonely but avoid talking to everyone who tries to talk to me.
I feel so fucking bored so bored and everything is pointless and I dont wanna do anything, on a small scale and on a bigger scale

I am so damaged I will die alone, I can't let ppl in, not truly, I hate myself, I hate being alive, I hate trying, I have no goals, no dreams, all friendships are superficial, fuckkkk


anyways sorry for word vomit im just crashing out so hard and have no outlet.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

Have you researched things that might interfere with your antidepressants making them less effective?

 

[Fadenself00_]

Have you researched things that might interfere with your antidepressants making them less effective?

Cc: @intintint what antidepressant did you take? There's a time component with many ADs, that is rarely talked about. I for example have this with fluvoxamine, which starts out exactly as you described and then becomes dulling.

 

[Slipknot_XV]

Hola
Joder, me pasa lo mismo. Estoy tomando fluoxetina y al principio me sentía bien, incluso llamé a amigos y hablé con gente, y me sentía más o menos bien, pero después de unas 7 semanas y un par de malas noticias, ¡zas!, me explota la cabeza otra vez y los malos pensamientos vuelven con más fuerza que nunca. Ya no me importa nada, lo único que quiero es desaparecer.
Comprendo perfectamente cómo te sientes ahora mismo. Si necesitas desahogarte, estoy aquí para lo que necesites.
Te mando un abrazo y ánimo.

 

[The Disqualified]

OMFGGG

I got help a few months ago and took some antidepressants and it actually worked for a while. I wanted to live, went out with ppl, was content, picked back old hobbies!!!
and randomly last week it started to go down, i tried to fight it.

And today the crash out started lmaoooo

i literally want to die again fuck life omg

Like it s crazy in just one week I went from "omg life is so nice im so excited for everything", to "fuck fuck fuck fuck plz god let me not wake up tomorrow"

literally wanna kms everything sucks i dont wanna do anything

I feel so lonely but avoid talking to everyone who tries to talk to me.
I feel so fucking bored so bored and everything is pointless and I dont wanna do anything, on a small scale and on a bigger scale

I am so damaged I will die alone, I can't let ppl in, not truly, I hate myself, I hate being alive, I hate trying, I have no goals, no dreams, all friendships are superficial, fuckkkk


anyways sorry for word vomit im just crashing out so hard and have no outlet.

You sound disappointed and very emotional over all of this. I relate so much to how you feel. I also previously had a similar antidepressant experience that was exactly like that. I am now on another one. I don't think antidepressants can fix everything, but sometimes they can help a bit. I don't know really. I am still adjusting the dose of my current one. I don't like taking these pills but that's life sometimes, I guess.
I also feel very lonely and only have superficial relationships. I really wish I could be more, truly. I try so much, but it is so difficult, and I always end up feeling different from others. I don't think I have true deep relationships. I only mask my difference well enough to get along in college.
Anyway, I empathize with you. You can talk with me if you want. Sending best wishes. Hope we improve.