animatriste

animatriste

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Hi all anime, I'm new to the forum. I am an Italian boy, I suffer severely from depression. I purchased the powdered N from J a few years ago, I tried CBT but my sister saved me and they admitted me to the psychiatric hospital for 3 long months. Now I'm looking for a really good method for my CBT. I have not yet decided when to go. For now I want to study the best method and have your ideas and your love. I am looking for people here who are close to me to accompany me in my final choice. Thank you all. I'm sad soul but call me Chris too
 
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https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/
 
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https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/
You got there before me on the month anniversary of his goodbye note. It is your lucky day. Buy a lottery ticket. :blarg:
 
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Hi, thanks for your reply. I already have Quietapina. Should I also take antiemetics?
 
Jean4

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Hi, thanks for your reply. I already have Quietapina. Should I also take antiemetics?
Everything you need is in the manual which was posted.
 
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You got there before me on the month anniversary of his goodbye note. It is your lucky day. Buy a lottery ticket. :blarg:
Aha well that's my life goal now to comment on threads before Jean gets here :ahhha:
 
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Aha well that's my life goal now to comment on threads before Jean gets here :ahhha:
I will take you up on that. You are on! I now must be on my game. Heck. I live with insomnia. Now I will stay up 24/7 to make sure I get there first. :blarg:
 
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Hi all anime, I'm new to the forum. I am an Italian boy, I suffer severely from depression. I purchased the powdered N from J a few years ago, I tried CBT but my sister saved me and they admitted me to the psychiatric hospital for 3 long months. Now I'm looking for a really good method for my CBT. I have not yet decided when to go. For now I want to study the best method and have your ideas and your love. I am looking for people here who are close to me to accompany me in my final choice. Thank you all. I'm sad soul but call me Chris too
Hello, you are most welcome here and glad you have found somewhere safe to share and ask questions, this is very hard to come by in our 'outside' world.
As you have testimony to, your attempt didn't go as planned. Take all the time and do all the research that you can, this is something very difficult to do and without good information and perspective can make it all worse. Do ask and post whatever you feel you need to and we will try and help as much as can with any feelings or ideas. End of the day we all have to make our own final choices, but it helps to have those to be with you. I hate word final and is it so final, so always be sure and doubly sure before go ahead with anything. That is my thought anyway. I'm a sad soul too.
 
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Hello, you are most welcome here and glad you have found somewhere safe to share and ask questions, this is very hard to come by in our 'outside' world.
As you have testimony to, your attempt didn't go as planned. Take all the time and do all the research that you can, this is something very difficult to do and without good information and perspective can make it all worse. Do ask and post whatever you feel you need to and we will try and help as much as can with any feelings or ideas. End of the day we all have to make our own final choices, but it helps to have those to be with you. I hate word final and is it so final, so always be sure and doubly sure before go ahead with anything. That is my thought anyway. I'm a sad soul too.

Thanks for your generous and sweet reply. I am looking for love in this forum to prepare and get closer to my CBT. I will publish my plan later in order to also have your precious ideas and your comfort. Thanks to those who will be close to me
Please explain in great detail.

I got N powder from J a few years ago. I took the dose but without antiemetics and I threw up. My sister called for help and they saved me. Now N powder from China is no longer available. I believe it is so
 
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animatriste

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I am studying a plan for CTB with NS. I am so afraid to miss the steps and to fail. I am also very afraid to decide whether to fly away or not. Sometimes I feel ready, other times I don't. I am especially sorry for my family. They would suffer to death
I want to tell you a little about my story. My wife left me 5 years ago and I have lost all my dreams. I can no longer have relationships and suffer from multiple sclerosis. After 14 years she left me and I have been suffering from severe depression ever since. Every day is a pain for me. Here I seek your love and your dear words of comfort before I leave forever
 
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I hope someone answers this discussion of mine. I feel so alone and I am undecided whether to fly in the sky or to remain here still to suffer. Thanks to those who will be close to me and forgive my non-perfect English
 
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Despondent

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Sending my love your way!! ❤
 
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Many thanks to all. It will keep you updated on when I want to take the last train for peace
 
animatriste

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Does anyone like me suffer from depression and is not understood by anyone? I am being treated as a psychologist and psychiatrist but it seems to no longer work
 
animatriste

animatriste

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Czech your love and comfort before reaching CTB. I feel so alone and depressed. I can't relate to people. Inside I feel like dying. Does it happen to you too? Help me
 
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sorry you are goimg through what you're going through. Does not sound easy at all.

I'm also reeling from a breakup and dealing with Chronic disease/permanent disability.

Hard not to feel alone. But we are born alone and we die alone. So I guess there's nothing left to fear.
 
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I'm sorry you're suffering so much from depression. I'm happy to talk if you need a friend. I'm sorry they "saved" you, but I'm glad you're here. Nobody should be hospitalized against their will, and nobody should be made to feel alone.
 
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thanks to you who answered. you make me feel less alone and loved. until I am sure of CTB I will remain in this forum trying to give love even to those who feel alone like me. I love you even if I don't know
 
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