I want to hurt myself again

[barely_afloat]

I hate everything. Life is shit. I'm a piece of shit. I want to burn and cut myself again. I dont care. Im so sick of everything. I wish I had the courage to ctb. If I just had an ounce of courage, Id finally be gone. I hate myself. Why the hell did I choose to live this long? why is it so hard to ctb? I just need that one push and its finally over. life is so cruel. people say theres happy times and sad times. I think thats a lie. Its just sad and shitty times. Its only "happy" or decent because we trick ourselves into believing it is. and then life gets worse, so we trick ourselves again and the cycle continues. what the fuck did I do. stop messing with me. Im sick of my life. im shitty at expressing myself. idek what im writing anymore. I should just go outside in the night

 

[bestbeforetomorrow]

yeah, i know this feeling. some might say i know it too good heh. btw, absolutely agree w u about tricking yourself into happiness, i think that its possible only if the person is brainwashed to think that they are happy