Venting I Want To Die So Much

[EnvyTangerine]

I want to die so badly. I'm tired of everything. I wish it was easier to just die already. I don't even know what to say other than I need to die. I need to die. I don't know how I'm going to actually go through with this without giving up again. I want this so much.

Saw some tweets earlier. Some people are trying to get the site taken down and I hope I die before that might happen. I don't even have words rn, I just want to catch that bus so badly as soon as I can.

 

[Darkover]

i want to die too but not desperate atm

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I want to die so badly. I'm tired of everything. I wish it was easier to just die already. I don't even know what to say other than I need to die. I need to die. I don't know how I'm going to actually go through with this without giving up again. I want this so much.

Saw some tweets earlier. Some people are trying to get the site taken down and I hope I die before that might happen. I don't even have words rn, I just want to catch that bus so badly as soon as I can.

It feels like ever since the NYT article, people have really been trying hard to take this site down. I don't think they will be successful but who knows. I also didn't think Roe v. Wade would be overturned or the laws forcing trans minors to detransition.

 

[EnvyTangerine]

I'm so tempted to just CTB as soon as I can now. I'm really looking forward to resting.
I need to die. I need to die. I need to die. I need to die. I need to die.

 

[EnvyTangerine]

Someone came over to drop off some stuff here briefly and immediately criticised a bunch of things that needed doing around this place that I hadn't done. Want to CTB even more now.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Someone came over to drop off some stuff here briefly and immediately criticised a bunch of things that needed doing around this place that I hadn't done. Want to CTB even more now.

I wouldn't let it bother you too much, you could probably go to their place and find things worth criticizing. I just wouldn't let their criticism get to you :)

 

[absolomonisgone]

Thank you for your name tangerine. I go buy tangerine juice yesterday because your name make me remember it. Thank you

 

[EnvyTangerine]

Really tempted to end it all right now. If I disappear for a while then I'll probably have caught the bus. Bye-bye

Edit: Guess which moron didn't do any revision before attempting again? I don't think I hyperventilated long enough because SI came back

 

[EnvyTangerine]

Is anyone able to PM me with info on how to hyperventilate for SWB properly? Much appreciated

 

[FuneralCry]

It certainly can be torture feeling trapped in this cruel world when you just wish to exit so I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you are searching for. I really hate how difficult it has to be to die and how we have to suffer so much in finding ways to cease existing. I see it as being cruel how the options of peaceful and reliable methods are restricted from us, we deserve to have the option to die in peace.