Venting fear

[lavenderlilylies]

I don't find myself feeling the most afraid of what lies after death. It is terrifying to never certainly know until you actually die, but I don't think too much about it. I more so fear the process of dying, the pain, even if I were to die in my sleep I still think I'd feel something. I know it's inescapable but it's still the reason I'm still alive

 

[DeadAgain]

I feel the same way.
I'm not afraid of death, but of the process of dying.

 

[hereornot]

Wow, exactly that. I'm here with a heavy heart and I don't know what I'm waiting for.

The worst part is that everything could have been avoided if my brother hadn't given me a final blow. Family, I'm going to die because of the wrong actions of my own family who screwed me over.

What a horrible world this is...

 

[lavenderlilylies]

Wow, exactly that. I'm here with a heavy heart and I don't know what I'm waiting for.

The worst part is that everything could have been avoided if my brother hadn't given me a final blow. Family, I'm going to die because of the wrong actions of my own family who screwed me over.

What a horrible world this is...

I'm so sorry. family can be the worst to you than anyone else ever could

 

[Rudeus_Greyrat]

Wow, exactly that. I'm here with a heavy heart and I don't know what I'm waiting for.

The worst part is that everything could have been avoided if my brother hadn't given me a final blow. Family, I'm going to die because of the wrong actions of my own family who screwed me over.

What a horrible world this is...

My brother is the last nail on my coffin, so I totally understand you.

 

[NeoN0va]

For me it's both that, and the fear that I'll survive. If I were to survive an attempt, there is no way im going to get accepted by anyone. I'd be possibly even kicked out of my house and shit like that. That's what I am actually scared of. That's why i'm waiting with my SN for the right time, as I don't want to survive my attempt. I want it to be sucessful.

 

[lavenderlilylies]

For me it's both that, and the fear that I'll survive. If I were to survive an attempt, there is no way im going to get accepted by anyone. I'd be possibly even kicked out of my house and shit like that. That's what I am actually scared of. That's why i'm waiting with my SN for the right time, as I don't want to survive my attempt. I want it to be sucessful.

Yes! It's a haunting thought to wake up in hospital and everyone is mad at you or waiting for answers you can't give. Even more scary to think you could end up with complications and worse off than you were before

 

[skatergirl]

For me it's both that, and the fear that I'll survive. If I were to survive an attempt, there is no way im going to get accepted by anyone. I'd be possibly even kicked out of my house and shit like that. That's what I am actually scared of. That's why i'm waiting with my SN for the right time, as I don't want to survive my attempt. I want it to be sucessful.

What's ur protocol do u have the other medications ?

 

[NeoN0va]

I do, also, Ive already had a full plan, but chickened out. I dont think its my time yet.