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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
Jul 1, 2020
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its almost been 2 months. his voice is still in my head.
i want more weed, more booze
i talked my husband into getting me shrooms under the "itll help me" line. it might, idk, not the actual purpose im getting them.
my arm and legs are half covered in cuts, i want them covered. i counted 100 cuts on me before. i wonder if i can top that
i started messaging my ex again (a HUGE problem between my exSO (the one the post is about) and i). im being dishonest :aw: he makes it easier to hurt myself. he doesnt mean to, he doesnt know im using it that way. and my exSOs voice wont get out of my head. its telling me im wrong and to stop hurting myself like this. i could take my med, the voices will most likely go away thats what my meds do, but im not.
i want to go with my ED and stop eating.
i want to hurt more. the more i hear his voice the farther i want to push myself. i want to thoroughly hate myself and feel sick. i want to kill myself. just keep going, no matter what. i just have to keep going.
 
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want2dienow

Atari hazure?
Jul 24, 2022
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its been 2 years.
his voice is no longer in my head.
 
Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
Jul 1, 2020
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katagiri83

katagiri83

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Jan 4, 2022
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sadly it doesnt work that way for me. i know it wont go away
Psilocybin can help to quiet those voices or the persistent intrusive thoughts, ofc it depends on the individual's predisposition etc. If you haven't tried it yet, go and explore, the set & setting is an important factors.

Hope you can find some reprieve from the agony within @Life_and_Death 🤞
 
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