I want to cut and i have absolutely no one to hear me

[GhostgirlWannadie]

I wish i was dead. It's like i keep digging myself a hole and the deeper i get, the less i want to climb out. I just feel so pathetic and i want to cut. It's almost starting to get impulsive how much i want to cut my wrist. I've never cut my wrist, only other parts. I honsetly felt really good last night and now all of a sudden it's like the SLIGHTEST thing pushed me off. I want to hang myself.



I need someone to hear me but i don't want the consequences of actually telling someone.i hate being in all this pain and having no one to hear. I feel so shamed right now. I usually wan't to feel prideful but i have almost nothing to be proud of. Killing myself almost feels like preservation, like I'm protecting myself from having to live while being surrounded by disgusting idiots and having to lve being so worthless.

 

[Cherry Crumpet]

I'm so sorry you have to deal with this shit. My mood can shift in literal seconds. I know how it feels to be 'fine' one moment.. or at least for me.. content, and then 3 seconds later have my mood take a massive nosedive and suddenly everything feels pointless, whatever thoughts I might have had that felt positive.. that they were delusional.

Sorry, not sure where I'm going with this. I suck at this. I want to say though... I am proud of you for enduring all of this, for existing with this, and I'm so sorry that you have no one you feel you can turn to irl.

I'm just an internet stranger. But i hear you. I see the pain you're in. I can see it in your words. Everyone here, even if we're far apart, we see you and we see your pain. you aren't invisible. Sorry. I feel like my reply wasn't that helpful.. but i wanted to let you know. I saw it and I see you.

 

[Hystearical]

Did something just happen to trigger these feelings?