I want to CTB right now but it's difficult with my aunt around

[glitterypearls]

I'm living with her due to my mental health going to shit and her obsession with SAVING EVERYONE!! I can't order SN now since it's illegal in my country and I'd have to travel to order it in a country where It's okay to have but since everything is shit about SN now I can't do it. I can't CTB by train because we don't have trains in my new small city. other methods are difficult with her. I just went to the bathroom to wash my face and she knocked on my door "what are you doing???" till I opened the door. she check all of my packages now, she always follow me to see what I'm doing. she knows that I want to CTB. it makes it so hard. I was working on partial hanging but It's so difficult with her now. just let me go :(

 

[Solek]

Sounds rough, my family found out about my attempt through my family doctor which got me some medication for depression and told to hold on for a appoitment with a psychiatrist (that never happened), I talked about it with my family, and we shared our feelings towards what happened. I'm a pretty closed person (don't show my true emotions), so I guess with time they though I got over it. It's like nothing ever happened, we don't even talk about it anymore.

Good luck.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I'm sorry. Maybe taking up running intensely will trigger a myocardial infarction due to covid shots.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds really awful and frustrating being trapped in that situation, I just hate how we exist in a world where we cannot just die in peace, I'm also tired of having to continue the futile process that is existing. I really cannot stand pro life people who are determined to stop other people from suicide, I see that as being incredibly cruel, just because those people wish to delay their inevitable fate doesn't mean that others do, nobody should be forced to suffer in this hellish world.

 

[glitterypearls]

I'm sorry. Maybe taking up running intensely will trigger a myocardial infarction due to covid shots.

LOL what??? I run everyday and been doing it for years. sadly those shots didn't impact me at all.




she just screamed at me for attempting to do my nails using UV light, because UV light apparently causes skin cancer. like I give a fuck lol bitch I want to die let me at least do a little hobby I have why gotta make me miserable

 

[Ambivalent1]

LOL what??? I run everyday and been doing it for years. sadly those shots didn't impact me at all.




she just screamed at me for attempting to do my nails using UV light, because UV light apparently causes skin cancer. like I give a fuck lol bitch I want to die let me at least do a little hobby I have why gotta make me miserable

You're not running fast enough. A brisk walk is not enough.

Melanoma is no joke. I had early melanoma recently. They had to cut a chunk of skin out. Painful