Story I want to ctb but I'm afraid my mother will do the same after (read for context)

[inviável]

For context my mom is suicidal just like me. She's been struggling for mental health since I know me as a person, but she's on treatment and doing well I guess. And the thing that scares me is that when I tried to ctb for the first time she told me a few days after that she's only living for me, and if I die she will too, (idk who is more selfish me or her lol).

The main thing is I don't care if she ctb, but I care for my sister (7) and although my mom wasn't a good mother for me, she's the best option for my sister since the rest of the family is worst, way worst. I'm afraid that my sister will end up In a foster care or worst with her father's family.



Idk what I do I just know I want to be gone and I already planned everything, the only thing stopping me is this situation.

(Pls ignore English mistakes)

 

[FuneralCry]

Sounds like a difficult situation to be in but anyway I wish you the best, I just think that deciding when to die is a personal decision, none of us are obligated to continue existing here.

 

[DutchMister1488]

Well may i ask how old you are.
Since you seem quite young and i would highly suggest to not ctb before 21 since your brain is still developing and a lot can change mentally

 

[inviável]

Well may i ask how old you are.
Since you seem quite young and i would highly suggest to not ctb before 21 since your brain is still developing and a lot can change mentally

I'm 19 almost 20, I'm aware of that, and I appreciate your advice. But I do have my own reasons. my situation is unbearable to me

 

[DutchMister1488]

I'm 19 almost 20, I'm aware of that, and I appreciate your advice. But I do have my own reasons. my situation is unbearable to me

I fully get this dw, would you wanna have a chat about it perhabs?