Venting I want to cease existence

[Praestat_Mori]

I want to cease existence. If I never existed at all I would not have to endure all this suffering. Life sucks. No motivation and no energy left. I just want to fall asleep and never wake up again. And summer is the worst time of the year for the CO method ... so it looks like I'm trapped here for some more time!

 

[josephk]

I want to cease existence. If I never existed at all I would not have to endure all this suffering. Life sucks. No motivation and no energy left. I just want to fall asleep and never wake up again. And summer is the worst time of the year for the CO method ... so it looks like I'm trapped here for some more time

Feel the same way. Sending best wishes

 

[The anhedonic one]

Yes, this existence sucks the life out of you. And having to wait for the right time to CTB just makes things even worse.

 

[popcornheart]

I too wish it was as simple as falling asleep and never waking. If only one could will themselves into the void.
I also recently came to terms with the fact that summer is not the optimal season for CO, too. I can't imagine having to make it through until the Fall or Winter. Ugh.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never waking again certainly sounds so ideal to me as well, I've always wished for peaceful eternal sleep where I'm finally free from everything. I understand that it's so tiring feeling trapped here but anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I also recently came to terms with the fact that summer is not the optimal season for CO, too. I can't imagine having to make it through until the Fall or Winter. Ugh.

Yay! that still means still another 1/2 year to go.