Help I want to but i'm scared

[Csmith8827]

I had everything i need to go out. SN, Meto, and just got ahold of some benzos today. I just don't know why i can't bring myself to go and do it. I even have a good camping spot so I won't be found. I just dunno why I can't bring myself to do it already...no clue. I may switch to gunshot method instead.

 

[Jean4]

This May be helpful to you. If you can't do it, it could be because you aren't ready. There is nothing wrong with that. When you are ready, nothing will stop you.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

 

[Flippy]

Perhaps you aren't ready and this isn't your time. There maybe something deep within you that can't come to the fore that wants you to at least postpone. Perhaps gathering your items,meds and camp site were ritualistic enough to relieve some of the feelings, like a method of taking control. Maybe that's all you needed to do for today and maybe towards the future? I wouldnt switch to a gun right now! Please don't! :-0

 

[Thereisnothing]

Perhaps you aren't ready and this isn't your time. There maybe something deep within you that can't come to the fore that wants you to at least postpone. Perhaps gathering your items,meds and camp site were ritualistic enough to relieve some of the feelings, like a method of taking control. Maybe that's all you needed to do for today and maybe towards the future? I wouldnt switch to a gun right now! Please don't! :-0

I second what Flippy says, very wise words and observations. Personally I cant bring myself to do it either, despite being so empty here and wishing to find peace, so do understand where you are coming from.