I want a friend

[Yuki K]

I don't mean to make friends from this thread but i just want one only one friend to whom i can truly open up. I have friends, a bunch of them actually but none of them know my true feelings, i am lying to them and i keep lying to them every single day. They are not inherently bad people, on the contrary they are actually quite fun and supportive but i'm always putting up a facade in front of them

 

[SMmetalhead36]

I don't mean to make friends from this thread but i just want one only one friend to whom i can truly open up. I have friends, a bunch of them actually but none of them know my true feelings, i am lying to them and i keep lying to them every single day. They are not inherently bad people, on the contrary they are actually quite fun and supportive but i'm always putting up a facade in front of them

Wow! Just be truthful with them. I know that it's a lot easier said than done but if they are indeed true friends they'll understand

 

[Yuki K]

Wow! Just be truthful with them. I know that it's a lot easier said than done but if they are indeed true friends they'll understand

if i'm truthful to them, they will leave me, one for the truth is ugly, two because i've been lying to them for so long and i don't want them to leave

 

[SMmetalhead36]

I understand that, but if they are true friends they'll be there no matter what. I'm assuming you're not a cold-hearted criminal or pedophile, is it based on how you are feeling or your thoughts that you don't want them to know?

 

[Yuki K]

it is both on how i'm feeling that is my suicidal tendencies, thoughts and plans and also my identity being trans

 

[eLdus]

Maybe it's worth the risk to try and open up to them anyway, at least about being trans? If you have plans to ctb, it feels like there is nothing left to lose.

 

[SMmetalhead36]

it is both on how i'm feeling that is my suicidal tendencies, thoughts and plans and also my identity being trans

Got it. Real friends are going to love you no matter what.