I used to think sucide was selfish

[FireFox]

I never thought in my life i would end up being a member of a forum like this. I realise now maybe i am being punished and all this really karma.

Growing up i used to think sucide was selfish mainly due to my my cultural /religous upbringing and more importantly i couldnt understand why would a person leave behind your families like that espically if children are involved.

I used to think forums like this were forums like this were fruitcakes and morbid nutjobs.

Now i am a member .
Why do i want to catch the bus
- I dont want to live to see the next 10 years of my life. The future scares me . Already my life is a mess I have no career ir a stable job, no boyfriend and i am emotionally immature.
- I feel like i am never going to be happy again in this world. Last christmas i told my mum boyfriend all i want for christmas is to be a happy again.
- i dont want to be me anymore. I am stupid( most people would disagree and tell me i am clever), imcompent, unattractive( family say i am pretty).
The outside world does not want to listen to me. They say "It is going to be fine" "everyone feels that way"
I am sorry when i near a bridge i want to throw myself off it, i have boxes of medicine in my house and i have the urgue to shallow it all. I just want to sleep forever as i am living in a nightmare.
I dead before 30.
It is all karma

 

[alizee]

Karma makes as much sense as the belief in free will. Both are an illusion and cannot exist. Everything is cause & effect also known as determinism. One cannot make a choice that is truly their own. We don't choose to be born into the life that we are and it's similar for what follows. People are born into unique variety of genetics and environmental factors. All of the external forces after birth effect you to a point where every "choice or decision" is just the outcome of the summation being all the previous events that happened. So karma doesn't really work because it's punishing or rewarding a person that fate is bringing down a path where it couldn't have been different.

 

[faust]

Life is totally unpredictable and it does not care whether we feel fine or not.
I never thought suicide is selfish, maybe because I was too young when I first became suicidal, I simply did not think about that before.
Would not believe I will become a member of a suicide (does not matter pro-life, pro-choice or pro-death) forum because I did not actually google any suicide websites, I duckduckgo'ed N and accidentally found SS. And fell in love with this place.
This life is unpredictable.
I am sorry you are facing these issues too. Wish you a good luck in whatever you do!

 

[puppy9]

Are you spying on me?

I wish I am lucky for once. A luck that will turn my life around.

 

[WhatIsMyLife]

"A lot of people fail to realize that life can be the worst thing for some people. We say suicide is a selfish act, but in some cases, we are being selfish in asking for them to continue their suffering so we don't feel a moment of grief." - A post from somewhere on reddit.

 

[HadEnough1974]

I never thought in my life i would end up being a member of a forum like this. I realise now maybe i am being punished and all this really karma.

Growing up i used to think sucide was selfish mainly due to my my cultural /religous upbringing and more importantly i couldnt understand why would a person leave behind your families like that espically if children are involved.

I used to think forums like this were forums like this were fruitcakes and morbid nutjobs.

Now i am a member .
Why do i want to catch the bus
- I dont want to live to see the next 10 years of my life. The future scares me . Already my life is a mess I have no career ir a stable job, no boyfriend and i am emotionally immature.
- I feel like i am never going to be happy again in this world. Last christmas i told my mum boyfriend all i want for christmas is to be a happy again.
- i dont want to be me anymore. I am stupid( most people would disagree and tell me i am clever), imcompent, unattractive( family say i am pretty).
The outside world does not want to listen to me. They say "It is going to be fine" "everyone feels that way"
I am sorry when i near a bridge i want to throw myself off it, i have boxes of medicine in my house and i have the urgue to shallow it all. I just want to sleep forever as i am living in a nightmare.
I dead before 30.
It is all karma

Suicide is selfish, but there comes a time and point where you've had enough and it's time to treat yourself. Suicide is something that you do for yourself because you've tried everything else and nothing has worked. At the end, everyone else hurts, but you're at peace. You got what you wanted, peace at last. It's selfish, but I don't see that as a bad thing after everything else has been tried. It's your life, you have the right to be selfish, for once!

 

[Marktheghost]

I never thought in my life i would end up being a member of a forum like this. I realise now maybe i am being punished and all this really karma.

Growing up i used to think sucide was selfish mainly due to my my cultural /religous upbringing and more importantly i couldnt understand why would a person leave behind your families like that espically if children are involved.

I used to think forums like this were forums like this were fruitcakes and morbid nutjobs.

Why did you think suicide is selfish?

 

[Nobbo]

I never thought in my life i would end up being a member of a forum like this. I realise now maybe i am being punished and all this really karma.

Growing up i used to think sucide was selfish mainly due to my my cultural /religous upbringing and more importantly i couldnt understand why would a person leave behind your families like that espically if children are involved.

I used to think forums like this were forums like this were fruitcakes and morbid nutjobs.

Now i am a member .
Why do i want to catch the bus
- I dont want to live to see the next 10 years of my life. The future scares me . Already my life is a mess I have no career ir a stable job, no boyfriend and i am emotionally immature.
- I feel like i am never going to be happy again in this world. Last christmas i told my mum boyfriend all i want for christmas is to be a happy again.
- i dont want to be me anymore. I am stupid( most people would disagree and tell me i am clever), imcompent, unattractive( family say i am pretty).
The outside world does not want to listen to me. They say "It is going to be fine" "everyone feels that way"
I am sorry when i near a bridge i want to throw myself off it, i have boxes of medicine in my house and i have the urgue to shallow it all. I just want to sleep forever as i am living in a nightmare.
I dead before 30.
It is all karma

Wow feels like you took the words and feelings right from my heart. What you are explaining is exactly how I feel. I never thought ever that I'd be on a forum like this.future scares me like crazy as well, I'm so scared of it and feels like it's only going to be bad. Every time I drive past a bridge, or walk close to a tall building all I can think of is me jumping off. But I just don't have the balls to do it. I tried OD on my medication but didn't work, n I just wanna sleep n not wake up. I feel you on every level:(

 

[Notabadguy]

Suicide can be very selfish, not always. But it's a personal decision, too bad that a peaceful, realiable one is hard to get.

 

[Despondent]

I wasn't brought up in any cultural background and when suicide was discussed (which was only a few times) it was said to be "selfish". I think it depends on the circumstances.

For me, I thought it was selfish that I wanted to ctb -- prior to joining the forum. It was something that many people around me would say, so I ''had" to believe them. I felt guilty for thinking the way that I did. I would say for those who are close with family, maybe even those who aren't, really do consider their family and friends. It's almost unbearable for some to think of leaving them behind and what the suffering would be like in the aftermath. They hold off ctb, even if their pain is so intense, so their family won't be in despair. For the most part, no, it's not a selfish act

 

[Let'sgetoutofHERE]

I never thought in my life i would end up being a member of a forum like this. I realise now maybe i am being punished and all this really karma.

Growing up i used to think sucide was selfish mainly due to my my cultural /religous upbringing and more importantly i couldnt understand why would a person leave behind your families like that espically if children are involved.

I used to think forums like this were forums like this were fruitcakes and morbid nutjobs.

Now i am a member .
Why do i want to catch the bus
- I dont want to live to see the next 10 years of my life. The future scares me . Already my life is a mess I have no career ir a stable job, no boyfriend and i am emotionally immature.
- I feel like i am never going to be happy again in this world. Last christmas i told my mum boyfriend all i want for christmas is to be a happy again.
- i dont want to be me anymore. I am stupid( most people would disagree and tell me i am clever), imcompent, unattractive( family say i am pretty).
The outside world does not want to listen to me. They say "It is going to be fine" "everyone feels that way"
I am sorry when i near a bridge i want to throw myself off it, i have boxes of medicine in my house and i have the urgue to shallow it all. I just want to sleep forever as i am living in a nightmare.
I dead before 30.
It is all karma

Why do you think you're stupid?

 

[kaz]

selfish is condemn someone to live a life that he hates in a body that he hates, besides selfishness is a huge lack of empathy

 

[hatelife]

Suicide is selfish, but there comes a time and point where you've had enough and it's time to treat yourself. Suicide is something that you do for yourself because you've tried everything else and nothing has worked. At the end, everyone else hurts, but you're at peace. You got what you wanted, peace at last. It's selfish, but I don't see that as a bad thing after everything else has been tried. It's your life, you have the right to be selfish, for once!

but how can u be sure? that u will be at peace, I tried meto last night before sn and 1 hour of the wait was enough to cancel sn yet again out of fear and guilt, I dont know how ppl can do it to be honest, its much easier other methods I think like gun or something u dont have to wait for