I try to better my life, but i can't.

[Nightthere]

I finally told the girl I like that I like her. But she ignored it. I know she's going through times right now, but I feel so bad and worthless, unlovable. I wanted to try SN's method and end my suffering, I never want to feel anything or think anything again, it hurts like hell not to be loved by the people you work hardest with, and even my family members seem to hate me. With the melancholy I feel right now, I would kill myself in the easiest way possible, regardless of the physical pain or suffering I would feel, I just wanted to switch off.

 

[liljeep]

Are you chronically suicidal? I'm sorry to hear she ignored you and that you think your family hates you. Loving people who don't love you back or needing to live with them is so painful.

 

[90starve]

im so sorry that this has happened to you - i know the feeling too well. people can be so disappointing. wishing you the best <3

 

[MrDarkness]

I've been there too many times bro, I felt as if my heart is going to shatter, I can't tell you that life gets better cause idk. But I hope your able to find someone

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's really understandable just wishing to be finally free, there really is too much suffering in existing and I find it dreadful how we exist in a world where people suffer so much all through no fault of their own, existence is just too unnecessarily cruel. I just personally don't think that other people can be relied on.

 

[Nightthere]

Guys, thank you very much for the words of support. I had an outbreak and I felt very bad before, however, she came back to talk to me and said that everything is fine. I give my life several chances, because not everyone manages to have courage and a good method for ctb. Who knows in the future.

 

[aGoodDayToDie]

I know the feeling too. I'm stuck in a very unrewarding relationship. We argue all the time. She always criticises me. We never have fun times. I'm trapped. I cant go looking for other relationships. And even if I could, what are the chances of me meeting someone compatible? Pretty fucking slim. Noone wants a 40something year old man with no job and no home and mental health problems who rarely goes out and often feels suicidal. I'm a lost fucking cause

 

[leavingsoon99]

Yeah, I know that feeling. It never really goes away. I just numb myself to it. I mean, I don't really care what other people think of me or if they love me. However, to be on this planet without anyone in your corner is just soul crushing. I'm sorry you're having to go through this. I send you good vibes and love. I hope everything works out for you.

 

[Shaylla1998]

I have experienced that overwhelming feeling of heartbreak four times in my life, and each instance involved someone I deeply cared about. Over the past few years, I have gradually become emotionally numb as a way of self-preservation, although I still feel sadness. This emotional detachment has led to a lack of trust in others, causing me to withdraw from meeting new people and intentionally maintain distance in my relationships. If you can keep everyone at bay, none of them will be able to hurt you.