About 5 months ago I tried to CTB via caffeine OD. I took about (probably slightly less than) 50g of caffeine powder, which I dissolved in boiling water and then drank once cool enough. The whole experience was horrendous and I would not recommend it as a method (in addition to the fact that it obviously did not work). Happy to answer any questions people have.
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- Jan 14, 2020
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Why did you decide to go with caffeine? Just curious on that.
Can you describe the effect of such an amount of caffeine from the moment of taking it?
Nymph
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Did you throw up? Did you take any antiemetics to prevent throwing up? Was it painful? What symptoms of caffeine OD did you experience?
It was easily available, and though I had considered non-drug methods (e.g. hanging) I found it physically difficult to force myself to go through with them.
I bought SN several times but then chickened out and disposed of it...and now it's not really available in the UK
I can't really to be honest as my memory is really bad (for the few hours before taking it as well). I know I had a really strong burning smell, and that it was physically a almost impossible sensation to withstand (hence I called a friend for help). I assume the most horrible part was heart palpitations / feeling like I was having a heart attacked, bit as I said my memory is very minimal.
I also couldn't really walk. As in, I had to crawl to the front door (and even that was like climbing a mountain) and my friend dragged me into the taxi. She also said that time appeared to be going very slowly for me, like I kept asking why no one (taxi or ambulance) had arrived yet.
I can't really to be honest as my memory is really bad (for the few hours before taking it as well). I know I had a really strong burning smell, and that it was physically a almost impossible sensation to withstand (hence I called a friend for help). I assume the most horrible part was heart palpitations / feeling like I was having a heart attacked, bit as I said my memory is very minimal.
I also couldn't really walk. As in, I had to crawl to the front door (and even that was like climbing a mountain) and my friend dragged me into the taxi. She also said that time appeared to be going very slowly for me, like I kept asking why no one (taxi or ambulance) had arrived yet.
I dissolved in water and drank it. I would say I ingested slightly under 50g as the very end of the drink wasn't totally dissolved. But it was roughly 50g
I dissolved in water and drank it. I would say I ingested slightly under 50g as the very end of the drink wasn't totally dissolved. But it was roughly 50g
I threw up. A lot (like extreme vomitting for the next 24 hours. To the point that I tore my esophagus. Would not recommend in any way). I didn't take antiemetics as I didn't have access but also thought with the dose of be likely to CTB anyway. It wasn't painful per se (though as explained above my memory is bad, I think due to both the overdose and the trauma of the experience), just a horrible feeling. Also explained the symptoms (as far as I can remember - there was likely much more that I have thankfully repressed!) Above
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are you sure it was 50g? I have read toxicity effects of far less killing people very quickly even for those who were not suicidal. I wonder if boiling the caffeine screws up the potency/makes it far weaker and am very curious how long it was boiled for/if the caffeine in the bottom was actually the majority of the dosage. This stuff gets complicated fast.
Did you couple it with an anti-nauseant and high dose ephedrine? That triad always made the most sense to me to trigger cardiac arrest
FluffyDove
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- May 11, 2020
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Yep, measured with a decimal scale. May have ingested slightly less due to the powder not dissolving (hence not easy to drink the end of it), but roughly 50g. I don't think I would have boiled the caffeine (I boiled the water and then just poured over), and as I said, there was a small portion possibly left at the bottom un-dissolved, but I firmly believe this was a small proportion of the 50g. But not claiming to be a chemist!
I called for help by choice, though I do not really remember doing this. I was so, so certain in my mind that I would be able to withstand whatever effects the drugs had and not alert anyone, but it seems I did call. The only memory I have is not being able to bear the physical sensation and therefore calling for help, rather than a sudden desire to live.
(and sorry for the slow replies, was staying away from this site in an attempt at remaining mentally well...)
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