Discussion I told my friend about my attempt

[Hangm4n]

I told my friend tonight about my attempts. He begged me not to do it.
But i feel bad because I still feel like I will.
I want to escape this reality and embark on a spiritual journey out of the body. Fed up of this feeling of uselessness and emptiness.
my friend understands attempting hes been there But he's all good now.
Am I a bad person because I could lie to him? Being alive is Genuinely painful :(

 

[Hotsackage]

I aint tellin no one. Its gonna be a surprise

 

[Hangm4n]

I aint tellin no one. Its gonna be a surprise

If I do it then it's still a surprise. I should've just shut up. I'm worried he's gonna tell my family. Hopefully he doesn't

 

[zherhk]

Was maybe an help request?

 

[Hangm4n]

How I'm feeling right now I don't want help. I wanna ctb and be done with it.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I told my friend tonight about my attempts. He begged me not to do it.
But i feel bad because I still feel like I will.
I want to escape this reality and embark on a spiritual journey out of the body. Fed up of this feeling of uselessness and emptiness.
my friend understands attempting hes been there But he's all good now.
Am I a bad person because I could lie to him? Being alive is Genuinely painful :(

I will LIE MY ASS OFF until I'm dead !!!
I did tell a friend I wanted to die a few years ago. He got upset. He doesn't know I am serious about CTB. We don't really talk much anymore.
Not because I want to die … we don't see each other that much. I guess that is a good thing.

 

[Hangm4n]

I should've just kept quiet but if I do it this weekend he will not have a clue as he will be busy. I know it sounds bad. I'm just so much better off not being here. I'm aiming for Sunday night as the time.
the anxiety is killing me, it's no way to live my life.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I should've just kept quiet but if I do it this weekend he will not have a clue as he will be busy. I know it sounds bad. I'm just so much better off not being here. I'm aiming for Sunday night as the time.
the anxiety is killing me, it's no way to live my life.

If I'm not on Sunday before your planned exit, I hope that you find peace.

 

[Hangm4n]

If I'm not on Sunday before your planned exit, I hope that you find peace.

thank you, that means a lot. I feel like I'm more accepting of it now than I was before. Hopefully the accepting helps me surrender to ctb

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

thank you, that means a lot. I feel like I'm more accepting of it now than I was before. Hopefully the accepting helps me surrender to ctb

I have accepted that I need to CTB … I'm afraid of failure and hurting my family. Also I don't know a good place to CTB without being found.