Venting i told him

[Life_and_Death]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

..........yeah.......ok not the same as actual screaming......i was hopeful

i told him and now all i want to do is cry and go to my rope and die. before anyone asks. its on the other side of town

 

[ZardozOmega]

I'm confused

 

[Life_and_Death]

I'm confused

Like I tagged it's just a vent that I couldn't physically do so I was hopeful this would help. Not really. Anyway context (which I know my content typically doesn't say much. I'm just not good at talking. But if someone asks a question I can answer. Idk I'm weird lol) I told my friend that I don't want to be in a relationship with 1 person basically. not random people. Not an open relationship. Just 2 people that care about me and I care for back. Anyway now I feel like shit for ever saying anything. Nothing's going to get fixed. I should have kept my struggle internal.

Also if you go through my threads you'll find references to it in the past. Just general "a problem I can't talk about stuff" telling him last night was the first time I ever voiced the thought and I never should have.