I think tonight will be the night I catch the bus...

[anguila_anguila]

Sad to read this..
Sounds like you have given it a lot of thought.
I guess the only thing to say is good luck.

 

[Catching_the_bus]

Sad to read this..
Sounds like you have given it a lot of thought.
I guess the only thing to say is good luck.

Thank you I have put a lot of thought into it and I wish life hadn't brought me to this point.. but unfortunately I just can't stand to be here another day... Sometimes I think about how it would have been if my life had gone differently... Sometimes I envy the people who are happy with existing in this world... But unfortunately for me I am not happy in this reality and probably never will be. Maybe in the next life things will be better

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm sorry about your dad. I lost my mom a few years ago, so I know how much it sucks. It seems like you're certain about your decision, so I wish you the best of luck. I just wish life hadn't forced you into it though.

 

[Shivali]

May you find what you are looking for

 

[Yankey Doodle]

Sorry everyone! I had a few things to take care of but now that I have everything taken care of I will be able to take the SN at approximately 7-8 am! Sorry for the confusion I had an unexpected situation come up that needed to be taken care of beforehand

Hoping you get the peace you deserve afterwards! Don't be ashamed though if ever you change your mind last minute, there's always more busses to catch!

 

[ranaway]

I have reconsidered Ctb many times in my 24 years of life... If it wasn't for my dad I would have Ctb years ago... He's dead now... There is nothing keeping me on this awful planet anymore. Please believe me when I say that not only have I put YEARS of thought into this but I have also exhausted all measures of help... Nothing has ever made me feel better and nothing ever will... I would have been gone already but I had to make sure some things were taken care of... Now everything is in order and my plan is to do it around 7:30 or 8:00 am Eastern Standard Time. These last few hours are going to be spent meditating and preparing myself mentally for my trip to the other side

Well I truly hope that you will be alright and ready for your new journey!
Best wishes for you that you don't have to suffer anymore and a painless experience. We're always here for you!

 

[Catching_the_bus]

SN is mixed and I am ready to drink it! I will let you guys know what happens

 

[Catching_the_bus]

The taste was like they say.... Really REALLY salty sea water... Burns the throat a bit on the way down... I didn't state this before but I am did 35g mixed with 100ml of water and I have a back up cup of 25g mixed with 50ml of water if I vomit

 

[Catching_the_bus]

This is your last chance man. Not to be a downer but really think once more if you have anything to cling on to especially if you do not have physical ailments. Im 21 and im ctbing due to physical pain. I have no family or friends nor job but if I wasnt in pain Id cling to my life with all I have. You know what is best for you.

As I stated before I have put a lot of thought into this and I know that this is the best option for me personally.. I know you are only trying to help but it is much too late for me

Find peace brother, hopefully you can reunite with loved ones

I probably should have stated this before but I am a female so... Sister thank you for your kind words and support.
Still feeling pretty normal... A bit nauseous and dizzy but otherwise normal... I will update you guys until it is no longer possible for me to type
Finger nails are already starting to turn blue (didn't expect that to happen so fast) nausea is overwhelming but haven't thrown up... Throwing up has always been rare for me.... I am getting increasingly dizzy and super light headed... I think I'm going to go lay down now... Thank you all for your support and love these past few days. Farewell... My bus is here

 

[Destiny Calls Me]

@Catching_the_bus Farewell Hope you find peace. See you on the other side soon enough

 

[HerculePoirot]

Perhaps you are still conscious. If so, big hugs

 

[Shivali]

 

[SuicideDreams]

You have antiemetics and comfort meds?

 

[outrider567]

Goodbye

 

[HopelessAngel]

Goodbye sweetheart

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[ranaway]

Sweet dreams

 

[RUPA]

Peace be with you

 

[erwyn]

still there? are you sure u have done everything you needed to do before youll decide to take action?

 

[Caoine01]

@Catching_the_bus: See you soon. I hope you have a peaceful transition and you find your place within infinity

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

When I asked for IC I had already obtained the CCS SN however I wasn't able to find any information on purity as my bottle of SN from CCS doesn't state purity of the product (I added a pic so you can see what I mean!) CCS only took a few days to deliver after I ordered however I only live a couple of states away so maybe that's why... I was planning on waiting to Ctb until I could get IC SN but because my situation has gotten so complex I will have to trust CCS View attachment 105518

I have reconsidered Ctb many times in my 24 years of life... If it wasn't for my dad I would have Ctb years ago... He's dead now... There is nothing keeping me on this awful planet anymore. Please believe me when I say that not only have I put YEARS of thought into this but I have also exhausted all measures of help... Nothing has ever made me feel better and nothing ever will... I would have been gone already but I had to make sure some things were taken care of... Now everything is in order and my plan is to do it around 7:30 or 8:00 am Eastern Standard Time. These last few hours are going to be spent meditating and preparing myself mentally for my trip to the other side

I have been following the forum as a guest for a while but made the account when I got my SN from CCS. I wasn't planning on using it this soon but things went downhill pretty fast in my personal life these past few days and I am ready much sooner then I expected to be

Ahh okay well sorry for the misunderstanding. I read the more recent posts and it seems like you're no longer with us unless you were found. I hope you're in peace now, sister.

 

[Canon1]

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