Venting I think this is it, literally nobody cares

[BrokenByTheSystem]

I didn't want to lose all my hope, I want to believe that people really care in the end, I want to believe that if I'm dying in some sidewalk someone will give me a hand, the same way I'd give my hand without asking for anything in exchange.

The hard truth is: either you get your shit together and start living like a normal person or kill yourself already.

People don't have time do deal with dramatic life of depressed and suicidal individuals.

Yes, we have therapists, psychiatrists, doctors and all that, but it feels they're just following the system expectations to get their reward (money and social acceptance).

The system that wants you to recover so you can keep producing for society and contribute as a well functioning human being.

They don't really care about you, and I don't think it's fair to blame them, we're all trying to survive here, therapists and doctors aren't an exception.

But that's the hard truth, they don't ACTUALLY care, they just follow their endless repetitive protocols, applying the same solution to every depressed/suicidal person, and expecting that the person reacts in one way or another. But it'll get to the point that even they'll be tired, they'll get tired of your bullshit, of your complains, they'll not stand the idea that you're not getting better after years of medicines and therapy, slowly they'll lose all faith and they'll start thinking if is it really worth it to keep trying to help you, you don't offer any value to society anymore and there's no projection of getting better anytime soon.

There is no hope.

 

[hurts2b]

The hard truth is: either you get your shit together and start living like a normal person or kill yourself already.

I've been struggling with this dilemma a lot lately. I seem totally incapable of doing either.

 

[ZeroRedz02]

I didn't want to lose all my hope, I want to believe that people really care in the end, I want to believe that if I'm dying in some sidewalk someone will give me a hand, the same way I'd give my hand without asking for anything in exchange.

The hard truth is: either you get your shit together and start living like a normal person or kill yourself already.

People don't have time do deal with dramatic life of depressed and suicidal individuals.

Yes, we have therapists, psychiatrists, doctors and all that, but it feels they're just following the system expectations to get their reward (money and social acceptance).

The system that wants you to recover so you can keep producing for society and contribute as a well functioning human being.

They don't really care about you, and I don't think it's fair to blame them, we're all trying to survive here, therapists and doctors aren't an exception.

But that's the hard truth, they don't ACTUALLY care, they just follow their endless repetitive protocols, applying the same solution to every depressed/suicidal person, and expecting that the person reacts in one way or another. But it'll get to the point that even they'll be tired, they'll get tired of your bullshit, of your complains, they'll not stand the idea that you're not getting better after years of medicines and therapy, slowly they'll lose all faith and they'll start thinking if is it really worth it to keep trying to help you, you don't offer any value to society anymore and there's no projection of getting better anytime soon.

There is no hope.

I think the same of all of what you writed, life is so messy and so i am, but it's always not the same to be as an individual..

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

You can lose all hope and still live though

False hope is probly the most dangerous

 

[ZeroRedz02]

You can lose all hope and still live though

False hope is probly the most dangerous

I just think i have that false hope, also i am not a guy anymore i am a thing..

 

[iwkmsssb]

it's true that people don't have time to deal with depressed or suicidal people, especially when it comes to friends. people are busy in life, i get it, they have a future to work towards but i don't. if i disappeared for a while no one would check up on me in at least 2 or 3 weeks, but i can't really put all the blame on them because i've been isolating. but they made me give up in the first place so i really don't know anymore.

 

[rainrainrain]

A lot of the "help" from others outside of this site feels forced and fake, this is true.. but isn't that the point of this site? Here, when someone replies to you or even just reads a story from someone venting, you know it comes from a place of mutual understanding. Not everyone here is suicidal anymore, I think that is important to remember. The fact that there are people out there and on this site who already are feeling better but still want to listen or help, gives me a bit of hope for myself.