I think my time is almost up

[chloeburbank]

find peace, sending much love

 

[kufajoy]

Hope you are at peace

 

[darksouls]

Some parts of SN inside haven't dissolved, is there a problem...?

best of luck and safe travels

 

[ölmezdim]

I'm still here. I seemed absolutely determined until the very last moment, but... Seeing SN in front of me gave me a very strange feeling. Suddenly, do you think it's safer to drink this and go into the unknown, or to stay here even if it's a terrible place? I couldn't decide and fell asleep. I realized that things change in the end; all those feelings you feel were of disappear. I don't know what I'm going to do now. I'm trapped between life and death.

 

[doomedbynarrative]

I'm still here. I seemed absolutely determined until the very last moment, but... Seeing SN in front of me gave me a very strange feeling. Suddenly, do you think it's safer to drink this and go into the unknown, or to stay here even if it's a terrible place? I couldn't decide and fell asleep. I realized that things change in the end; all those feelings you feel were of disappear. I don't know what I'm going to do now. I'm trapped between life and death.

I was thinking about you all evening. Massive hugs to you. I know this might sound silly but maybe go buy yourself something in the area you're in that you really like and just eat it. Like a dessert or something. Idk what kinda desserts they have there but there's gotta be something.

Or pet one of those cats. It's Turkey right? I heard from my friend who passed in November that when she went to Turkey there were cats all over the place and most liking to be pet.

That's kinda what I do really. Even if I'm in the depths of despair I eat junk and pet my cat. Didn't make anything better but I guess being miserable while eating and whatnot is preferable.

Just throwing suggestions out there.

 

[ölmezdim]

I was thinking about you all evening. Massive hugs to you. I know this might sound silly but maybe go buy yourself something in the area you're in that you really like and just eat it. Like a dessert or something. Idk what kinda desserts they have there but there's gotta be something.

Or pet one of those cats. It's Turkey right? I heard from my friend who passed in November that when she went to Turkey there were cats all over the place and most liking to be pet.

That's kinda what I do really. Even if I'm in the depths of despair I eat junk and pet my cat. Didn't make anything better but I guess being miserable while eating and whatnot is preferable.

Just throwing suggestions out there.

Thank you for your kind suggestions. Life is beautiful, but I feel like there's no place for me in it. I realized last night that I love life, but how can I keep going when everything is so difficult and bad... I don't know.

 

[doomedbynarrative]

Thank you for your kind suggestions. Life is beautiful, but I feel like there's no place for me in it. I realized last night that I love life, but how can I keep going when everything is so difficult and bad... I don't know.

I don't know either. Life is cruel and yet it is beautiful at the same time. I feel cut off from a large majority of that beauty. It all feels doomed. Maybe I won't make it. Maybe I will. But so long as I'm here, I might as well do what little things I can that I do like. They are nothing against the darkness but they exist.

I sincerely hope things get better for us. It's a foolish and weak hope but that's the best I got and it's free.

 

[itsgone2]

Thank you for your kind suggestions. Life is beautiful, but I feel like there's no place for me in it. I realized last night that I love life, but how can I keep going when everything is so difficult and bad... I don't know.

The decision seems easy. Then when it's time, SI kicks in. I don't think you've fully explained why you're here; but doesn't matter. You have to be comfortable with it and seems like you're conflicted. Maybe death isn't today