Venting i think my best friend of 4? years cut me off their life

[sadee]

it's really mind gobbling how fast can a friendship turn into. i can't believe it has been MONTH since we stopped talking when there wasn't a day that we didn't talk to each other, may it be nonsensical things, or other stuff.

i miss them, i hate that i can't have anything for as long as i want it to. why does everything have to change somehow? i hate my life. i hope in my next life, i would be someone who's not scared of growing up. i hope to be someone who will and can embrace every changes that come across in life. not in this life tho.

i hope they will not blame themselves or feel guilty or anything once i'm gone. i will not be there to assure them that it's okay, because it's part of life– to grow and to change. if being apart from me is what will make my loved ones to grow, i will happily do so. i would never want to be someone that holds anyone back.

 

[Maki9]

I relate very much, I'm also scared to lose my bestfriend of 4 years. It's way too beautiful to end.

Couldn't stand a change either.

 

[huntrix#1fan]

I'm sorry. Life can be so cruel. Being lonely is a different sort of pain

 

[FoolsExpedition]

similar situation, i had to cut my best friend off (they were lying to me and gaslighting me over the lie to the very last minute when i basically knew the truth the entire time and later had evidence for it) but we were friends for 2 years and god how quickly friendships can just go kaput upsets me. me and my friend used to hang out every single day and then recently i could kinda feel something was up and like they were pulling away, and then well, my first sentence.

i miss them but i have to respect and protect myself and enact my boundaries but it really sucks and i hate change a lot, i'm scared to try and make any new friends even though i really really want to. they send me one text a day now just saying 'morning' and i don't reply. it's really painful