Thequietone
Student
- Dec 4, 2021
- 121
Like I was born as a premature (10 weeks) had issues all my childhood, had an abusive father and a mother that was helpless over it, no siblings. We were not poor but still had some financial difficulties sometimes, my dad and my mom both have chronical health issues and were overweight. They raised me very strict with no freedom but in the same time they gave me a lot of fastfood which lead to me being overweight as well. I got bullied, we had family struggles and we have cut contact to a few people.
After I couldn't take it anymore, I started to cut myself when I was 14 (24 now) now I got my own home and a good job but I'm not happy about all that. I have no connection to myself or my life anymore.
I prepared my death, wrote notes last year, I know the spot, I know how, I know which season and have a date, I planned my funeral as well but idk if I will be able to commit. I hope so because I think everything that happened was a sign to kill myself. I have thoughts for over 10 years, last year was the first time I thought like yeah I should do it, it is the best for me.
I'm not meant to be here, I never had a relationship, I have no dreams or goals, I don't care about my career or travelling. All things people do to stay alive are nothing for me.
After I couldn't take it anymore, I started to cut myself when I was 14 (24 now) now I got my own home and a good job but I'm not happy about all that. I have no connection to myself or my life anymore.
I prepared my death, wrote notes last year, I know the spot, I know how, I know which season and have a date, I planned my funeral as well but idk if I will be able to commit. I hope so because I think everything that happened was a sign to kill myself. I have thoughts for over 10 years, last year was the first time I thought like yeah I should do it, it is the best for me.
I'm not meant to be here, I never had a relationship, I have no dreams or goals, I don't care about my career or travelling. All things people do to stay alive are nothing for me.