Yeah this is true. Thank you for kinda validating me on that. I have tried truly, but this is the place I feel most comfortable venting. Not exactly sure why, possibly the anonymity or relatability.
yeah I could choose something else, just genuinely don't know what. I don't feel I can confidently say I don't like programming just because I've only had low level languages which I know some people hate and I haven't really had much exposure to higher level languages.
I think I enjoy CS to a certain degree, but I don't know tbh. Idk what I'd enjoy and what I'd hate. Considered nursing while I was in high school but then I saw the reality of how rough that could be during 2020, which i know was only a period of time BUT I'm also young, and that very well could occur again. Also I'm squeamish when it comes to blood and stuff so probably not the best.
I don't come from a tech oriented community, actually. I come from a very rural town, and there's like no access to tech jobs around here. One of the reasons I chose CS is also because it gives me a valid reason to leave this small town. I feel like some people stick here and then stay because they start a family here or something but I don't know, I want to explore.
Part of me doesn't even want to think about working in ANY field for like 40 years, it sounds awful and increases my desire to CTB sometimes.
I know this is a lot to read and a lot of it is just me saying "I don't know" essentially, but I'm at a very uncertain point right now, and I hope I can make the right choice to either stay or switch, but it's something I don't know if I can decide right now, which fucking sucks :(
