Help I think I’m going to relapse

[willitpass]

the urge to self harm has been here for a long time, several months at this point. i'm tired of fighting it off, and with quarantine i just need to do it to cope. i'm almost 2 years clean but i just need the release. obviously if i do i won't tell anyone, but i also don't want to start lying again. would it be bad to start again? especially knowing it would probably lead to a full on relapse?

 

[a.n.kirillov]

How did you self harm?

Could you do something as an alternative, that hurts but doesn't do damage, like running up a hill until you puke?

 

[willitpass]

How did you self harm?

Could you do something as an alternative, that hurts but doesn't do damage, like running up a hill until you puke?

i used to cut and scratch, and i'm really craving cuts right now

 

[a.n.kirillov]

i used to cut and scratch, and i'm really craving cuts right now

Could you try something like this? Running, or maybe eating something very hot? Taking a cold shower?
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Smelling mustard or wasabi, putting icecubes in your mouth or your hands?

Sorry I have no experience with self harm, just some ideas.