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idonntseethepoint
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- Jun 28, 2021
- 43
I've been battling with suicidal thoughts for over a year at this point. Had several attempts this time last year. Tried super hard to recover but stuck and can't move past it.
I know on the surface my life looks perfect. I have a good job, good friends, live in a vibrant city. But I know deep down that I will never get married, never have kids, never do any of the normal things people do. And I don't want to wait around and watch everyone else have it except me.
I know everyone will be shocked and say empty things like "what a waste" when I do it, but I don't want to carry on like this anymore. Tonight might be the night, finally.
I know on the surface my life looks perfect. I have a good job, good friends, live in a vibrant city. But I know deep down that I will never get married, never have kids, never do any of the normal things people do. And I don't want to wait around and watch everyone else have it except me.
I know everyone will be shocked and say empty things like "what a waste" when I do it, but I don't want to carry on like this anymore. Tonight might be the night, finally.