Venting i think im doing it this time

[5_5]

(19, f, south america)

i have no plans for the future. no aspirations. nothing im good at. im just living every day on autopilot, getting high and trying to enjoy life every once in a while. i don't have a job, i dont even go to uni anymore. i just pretend to go and lie to my parents about my grades being good and my exams going well. i stopped caring. i dont care about my future. im too lazy to try to do anything about it anymore. its like i gave up on life. im even too lazy to shoot myself. i have the gun, i'd have to think about the place and time, but everything else is settled. i'd just delete all my social media and write a letter apologizing. i just need a sign. i know it's happening soon. i just wanna stop all this bullshit. i can't even bother to tell my best friend or parents or reach out for help. its over

 

[offbalance]

guns are a scary method unless you practice a lot, because you can always flinch at the last second and fuck it up. Just FYI

 

[5_5]

guns are a scary method unless you practice a lot, because you can always flinch at the last second and fuck it up. Just FYI

ty for the heads up

 

[Fleisch]

I hope you'll find peace one way or the other, just be very careful not to hurt yourself more.