Sammystink
Sammy
- Mar 30, 2026
- 35
This feels so weird to say, but I think I'll finally be able to CTB soon-ish!!
Last night I found a source for sn and it was surprisingly easy to find!
It all feels so weird actually, I spent the last few months trying to find the best way to CTB, everything was either too hard, scary, painful, or just not possible..
I've tried to hang myself a few times, tried to do the bath toaster thing, which dosen't work anymore, and hell I almost even tried bleach (So glad I didn't lmao)
I had this idea where I would go to the mountains at night, bring a blanket and my shark plushie for emotional support, and take the sn, where I could then die while looking at the stars and being in nature!
It was my ideal way but I didn't think I'd actually find where to get sn.. But I did it, and so I just need to pay for it and wait for it to ship and I'll be ready!
I don't have an exact date yet, but hopefully soon!
Last night I found a source for sn and it was surprisingly easy to find!
It all feels so weird actually, I spent the last few months trying to find the best way to CTB, everything was either too hard, scary, painful, or just not possible..
I've tried to hang myself a few times, tried to do the bath toaster thing, which dosen't work anymore, and hell I almost even tried bleach (So glad I didn't lmao)
I had this idea where I would go to the mountains at night, bring a blanket and my shark plushie for emotional support, and take the sn, where I could then die while looking at the stars and being in nature!
It was my ideal way but I didn't think I'd actually find where to get sn.. But I did it, and so I just need to pay for it and wait for it to ship and I'll be ready!
I don't have an exact date yet, but hopefully soon!
