I think if I killed myself, my mum would too

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My mum is suicidal and recently disabled. I know that's she's suicidal because she told my sister that she 'thinks about killing herself sometimes'.

My brother has just moved out without telling anybody and it's been stressing her out because of how reckless he is (eg, lying about where he's going, going on 3 day benders, staying at the houses of strangers and bringing grown men into our house). He has been 18 for 5 months.
My sister is near to getting kicked out of school. My sister also attempted suicide last year.

I think it's all taking a toll on her. I know it is. She thinks she's failed as a parent. I think that if I killed myself it would be the final straw. It doesn't necessarily make me want to stay, I've always known that my suicide would leave her broken or dead and I've tried before despite that. I'm just reflecting, I guess.

 

[Cyc]

I'm so sorry to hear that :( my mum is also suicidal so I know how it feels to deal with other people's suicidal feelings alongside your own

At the end of the day, suicide is your choice. It'll always impact anyone you know irl

 

[kufajoy]

God send you as the strongest. Ik you can fight for your mother until she leaves. Hope you and your family feel a little better soon. Sending love for your family

I'm so sorry to hear that :( my mum is also suicidal so I know how it feels to deal with other people's suicidal feelings alongside your own

At the end of the day, suicide is your choice. It'll always impact anyone you know irl

Feeling sorry for you. Ig my mother won't care that much. She already calls me by my brother's name somethings
Maybe she already started to replacing me because I stay in my room too much

 

[dogdrool]

I'm so sorry to hear that :( my mum is also suicidal so I know how it feels to deal with other people's suicidal feelings alongside your own

At the end of the day, suicide is your choice. It'll always impact anyone you know irl

She's never spoken to me about it but she does a really good job of hiding the way she feels. I hear her crying all the time, I know she's sadder than she thinks I understand.

You're right, it is my choice and none of us can avoid the impact of our suicides, unfortunately

 

[Cyc]

She's never spoken to me about it but she does a really good job of hiding the way she feels. I hear her crying all the time, I know she's sadder than she thinks I understand.

You're right, it is my choice and none of us can avoid the impact of our suicides, unfortunately

My mum's the opposite, she cries to me about how suicidal she is and says she doesn't know what she'll do without me

I think if our suicides have an impact on others it shows that there's people out there who care for u

 

[StellaOctangula]

My mom was like this too. Fortunately she got a successful ctb before me. At the end of the day the choice is individual Ig

 

[dogdrool]

My mom was like this too. Fortunately she got a successful ctb before me. At the end of the day the choice is individual Ig

Sometimes I kind of wish she would do it. If she did, I'd probably be able to go through with it myself.

 

[SCHOPENHAUERBITCH]

Honestly painful to read stuff like this. I guess my advice is to tell her because if you already suspect she's vulnerable to suicidal thoughts, she'd probably understand. You'd have to do some kind of check to see if she really does feel that way because explaining suicide to non-suicidal people is usually pretty pointless.