Cashewmilk
Specialist
- Mar 10, 2020
- 352
I've been feeling like literal shit and have a horrible cough, fever and shortness of breath, body aches etc. It's tough to function especially since I'm severely iron deficient and on opiates, so I just stumble around and cough constantly. I got tested but still waiting for results. I had to go back to get my methadone daily this past month so I got exposed more.
Anyway so I had severe shortness of breath today... it was so awful and painful and scary because you just don't know how much worse and painful it's gonna get. It's like a threshold I have with painful feelings, but the good thing was that the feeling of possible hypoxia was soothing, it felt like I was going to pass out and stop suffering. I am honestly so ready to die. The only thing that worried me was my hedgehog but I quickly wrote a to-do care sheet for my family.
I am terrible at containing it, it's impossible to breathe with a mask and constantly cleaning my hands, luckily I have a separate area shared with my sister but it's her and the cats and hedgehog that I'm worried about infecting. Anyone else in my position would have called an ambulance by now... but I'm waiting and trying to either die on my own or pull through at home in a comfortable place.
Anyone else have covid?
Anyway so I had severe shortness of breath today... it was so awful and painful and scary because you just don't know how much worse and painful it's gonna get. It's like a threshold I have with painful feelings, but the good thing was that the feeling of possible hypoxia was soothing, it felt like I was going to pass out and stop suffering. I am honestly so ready to die. The only thing that worried me was my hedgehog but I quickly wrote a to-do care sheet for my family.
I am terrible at containing it, it's impossible to breathe with a mask and constantly cleaning my hands, luckily I have a separate area shared with my sister but it's her and the cats and hedgehog that I'm worried about infecting. Anyone else in my position would have called an ambulance by now... but I'm waiting and trying to either die on my own or pull through at home in a comfortable place.
Anyone else have covid?