ferret-in-a-sock
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- Jan 25, 2023
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So, while I've halfway attempted to CTB in past month, I've never committed enough and usually only care to plan and try in depressive moods, not in manic happy ones--which I'm in right now.
Allergies are kicking my ass and my sinuses and teeth are so intertwined, that I get awful tooth aches whenever my sinuses suck. I took 6 pills and a double dose of OTC pain meds out of desperation to stop the pain, hardly a deadly amount--but there's a small thing--I'm allergic to Benadryl, but not enough I've ever worried about anaphylaxis. In fact, I was comfortable ODing even that small amount because Ive done far worse in attempts, so I expected the same as usual.
Something might be wrong with this bottle of allergy meds This is a brand new bottle bought from a major retailer, and I had a reaction. I couldn't breathe. My heart rate dropped so low. My hands went freezing cold and I looked like a dead man, face pale and lips off color. Limbs heavy. Movements drunken and off balance. I felt l I was gonna pass out. I desperately downed water and paused the game I was playing, and sucked in breaths, but it didn't let up. I thought it was a panic attack so I massaged my chest and tried to do "name 5 things you see, 4 things you hear, etc." But even after I felt myself calm I started feeling like milliseconds from passing out.
Eventually, I just crawled to the bathroom and forced myself to throw up and it fixed half the symptoms, not all, but breathing is easy again so thats what matters.
It could still be a panic attack, they can feel just as bad, but it was alarming just to feel unexpectedly "I am dying." My thought was "oh no, I have an opthamologist appointment tomorrow I'll miss if I die."
At least it cleared up my sinuses when I threw up and now my teeth don't hurt.
i know this is exactly what I'd wanted when I was actively suicidal, but I think if I had died I would have been glad I hadn't meant it in a weird way. Like I feel its a nicer ending. Like knowing I died...halfway in peace. I mean, I was at peace before I started being unable to breathe, lol.
Allergies are kicking my ass and my sinuses and teeth are so intertwined, that I get awful tooth aches whenever my sinuses suck. I took 6 pills and a double dose of OTC pain meds out of desperation to stop the pain, hardly a deadly amount--but there's a small thing--I'm allergic to Benadryl, but not enough I've ever worried about anaphylaxis. In fact, I was comfortable ODing even that small amount because Ive done far worse in attempts, so I expected the same as usual.
Something might be wrong with this bottle of allergy meds This is a brand new bottle bought from a major retailer, and I had a reaction. I couldn't breathe. My heart rate dropped so low. My hands went freezing cold and I looked like a dead man, face pale and lips off color. Limbs heavy. Movements drunken and off balance. I felt l I was gonna pass out. I desperately downed water and paused the game I was playing, and sucked in breaths, but it didn't let up. I thought it was a panic attack so I massaged my chest and tried to do "name 5 things you see, 4 things you hear, etc." But even after I felt myself calm I started feeling like milliseconds from passing out.
Eventually, I just crawled to the bathroom and forced myself to throw up and it fixed half the symptoms, not all, but breathing is easy again so thats what matters.
It could still be a panic attack, they can feel just as bad, but it was alarming just to feel unexpectedly "I am dying." My thought was "oh no, I have an opthamologist appointment tomorrow I'll miss if I die."
At least it cleared up my sinuses when I threw up and now my teeth don't hurt.
i know this is exactly what I'd wanted when I was actively suicidal, but I think if I had died I would have been glad I hadn't meant it in a weird way. Like I feel its a nicer ending. Like knowing I died...halfway in peace. I mean, I was at peace before I started being unable to breathe, lol.
