dumblosergirl
girl failure
- Feb 13, 2023
- 74
I tried antidepressants but after getting off of them from gaining 10 lbs (I'm very sensitive about my appearance.) also got off them because it was starting to get expensive and my wagey job can't keep up. I relapsed back into hopeless and suicidal thoughts and tendencies. It feels incredibly strong now. I have been going through a lot lately and after my bf left (we are long distance) I just felt very depressed. I live with my grandmother and she has been very mean to me and usually she is like this isn't anything new but I'm just getting tired. I'm also getting haggled by debt collectors for a stupid hospital bill. (us) I also got the flu and my work has been making me feel very guilty about it (alongside my grandma) and it just sucks. I just can't get out of bed and my room's a disaster. I really just hate being alive. I am happy to finally be a good relationship, don't get me wrong, but sometimes depression is stronger. I have SN but I honestly just want to hang myself. I look at gore images of people hanging themselves and I really think that's how I want to go.
