I relapsed I’m going to ctb tonight

[Cutter3991]

Well I relapsed. I thought it would feel great to do H again. I even made posts on here about it but I don't feel great I mean I did last night while I was high but then today the shit I've gone through to get the next one. It's not worth it. Time to end it. I've always told myself that I would rather die than use again. Time to make good on that promise to myself.

 

[AlmostFinished]

I don't know your story but it's sad to hear about your addiction. Have you sought help? Maybe you can leave it and give yourself another chance. What I am trying to tell you is that this is the last solution, you should always explore all the options available before doing so. In any case here we will listen and support you. Hugs from Spain.

 

[Cutter3991]

I don't know your story but it's sad to hear about your addiction. Have you sought help? Maybe you can leave it and give yourself another chance. What I am trying to tell you is that this is the last solution, you should always explore all the options available before doing so. In any case here we will listen and support you. Hugs from Spain.

I've been to 11 rehabs and been in and out of NA since I was 15. I'm tired of failing and starting over and hurting so many people

 

[AlmostFinished]

It is a disgrace that they could not help you. I hope you make a good decision.

 

[Astral316]

Is H OD your method?

 

[Blackjack]

I've been to 11 rehabs and been in and out of NA since I was 15. I'm tired of failing and starting over and hurting so many people

I'm sorry you're in such pain.

 

[Chronicillness]

I've been to 11 rehabs and been in and out of NA since I was 15. I'm tired of failing and starting over and hurting so many people

You need to change your perception on opioids asap. Some people just fair better in life on opioids, they suffer less and even live more enchanting lives even when facing against the odds of societal stigma and family disapproval. Imagine just for a moment, if you purified yourself of all that guilt by proxy. There's no reason to feel guilt for using opioids, you are pursuing what feels right to you, you are in the pursuit of happiness just like everyone else. If you aren't an over the top junkie who's a living hyperbole for junkie behaviors then you should literally have nothing to feel guilty about. The people "hurt" by your use need a perspective change. Rehab is obviously a scam and a waste of time for you. If your family harbors a lot of distrust and disappointment for you for trying to be happy, then ask them why the fuck did they choose to procreate if they were never willing to acknowledge the risks of bringing a human to full-term; suicide, drug abuse, starvation, horrific accidents, illness, etc. are ALL possibilities that you must acknowledge before procreating, and for them to make you feel such a way for trying to sift through the bullshit and create happiness the best way you know how then they are inherently flawed.

 

[Dawn0071111]

Addiction is awful, it makes one feel like they are not autonomous & in control of thier life.... I get wanting to ctb... because of it, the current options that exist so far dont help everyone..... I hope you find relief & peace.

 

[Soul]

I'm sorry you're struggling. Whatever decisions you make going forward I hope they lead you to the best consequences. x

 

[lofistos345]

You need to change your perception on opioids asap. Some people just fair better in life on opioids, they suffer less and even live more enchanting lives even when facing against the odds of societal stigma and family disapproval. Imagine just for a moment, if you purified yourself of all that guilt by proxy. There's no reason to feel guilt for using opioids, you are pursuing what feels right to you, you are in the pursuit of happiness just like everyone else. If you aren't an over the top junkie who's a living hyperbole for junkie behaviors then you should literally have nothing to feel guilty about. The people "hurt" by your use need a perspective change. Rehab is obviously a scam and a waste of time for you. If your family harbors a lot of distrust and disappointment for you for trying to be happy, then ask them why the fuck did they choose to procreate if they were never willing to acknowledge the risks of bringing a human to full-term; suicide, drug abuse, starvation, horrific accidents, illness, etc. are ALL possibilities that you must acknowledge before procreating, and for them to make you feel such a way for trying to sift through the bullshit and create happiness the best way you know how then they are inherently flawed.

Can you live your life as an opioid addict for the rest of your life? Don't you have to increase the dosage to feel the same? I'm kind of lost in addiction department.