I only live to be exploited

[dontletthembribeyou]

Most people believe that suicide should be prevented in all situations, regardless of how hopeless the suicidal person is. I feel that truly hopeless people such as myself are kept alive only to toil at low paying jobs until we die. If we are unable to enjoy life (especially if it's due to real, material conditions rather than just being imagined, as the MH industry would have you believe), we exist only so that labor can be extracted from us.

I've been thinking about this a lot lately. Objectively, I am better off dead. Just for my own sake - for various reasons I am inferior to everyone else, and there's really no reason to continue living because I know I'll continue to be pushed to the bottom of the hierarchy for the rest of my life. God knows I'll never achieve anything worthwhile or reach a comfortable standard of living once I'm fully on my own. I'm just not capable of the things other people are. Knowing that, it's cruel to expect me to continue living.

Yet all these forces around me are hellbent on keeping me alive (not me specifically, just suicidal people in general, but what I'm saying in this post doesn't apply to most other suicidal people). Mental health professionals try to delude me into thinking my life is salvageable, Google begs me to reconsider any time I search anything CTB related, the police would arrest me if they found me actively attempting, and everyone I know personally would go ballistic if they knew what I was planning. I'm sure pretty soon Palantir is going to find a way to report suicidal people directly to the US government so they can put us in work camps or some shit.

So why do they insist on keeping me alive if I'm never going to reach a bearable quality of life? I assume most individual people who are involved in this have relatively pure intentions, i. e. they have been led to believe that death (especially death by suicide) is inherently a bad thing. But I think they're encouraged to think this way for a more insidious reason: the owning and ruling classes need a permanent underclass of people to do the jobs that no one would do if they had a choice, like menial labor, fast food, or retail (and that is NOT to say that everyone who works these jobs is hopeless and better off dead, but that these jobs are the only options available for people who are). If every hopeless/better off dead person were to CTB right now, society would collapse without our support.

Sorry for the bad grammar. I hope I got my point across okay; this might be kind of incoherent because I'm tired and hungry rn AND my brain is fried from using the internet too much.

 

[itsgone2]

I've been thinking about this a lot lately. Objectively, I am better off dead. Just for my own sake - for various reasons I am inferior to everyone else, and there's really no reason to continue living

It's terrible you feel this way but I wish I had this foresight when I was your age. Instead I tried to have a normal life and it has blown up in my face.
Really I am sorry you feel this way. Hopefully things improve.
But ultimately what are you saying? That it's all meaningless? If so I agree. But then what? Just ctb? I would, gladly, if easy to do. But it's not, so are we just stuck?

 

[Greasyhair]

You raise good point with the permanent underclass. Future worries me because I think the elites will form new underclass out of those deplaced by AI and further bolster it by mass immigration. I predict that the small support systems that still exists to support the old underclass will be largely done away, and instead you will be offered corporatized euthanasia (and of course you will have to pay for the privilege.)

This way the elites get people to compete fiercely for the lowest job while not having to upkeep the support system.

 

[dontletthembribeyou]

It's terrible you feel this way but I wish I had this foresight when I was your age. Instead I tried to have a normal life and it has blown up in my face.
Really I am sorry you feel this way. Hopefully things improve.
But ultimately what are you saying? That it's all meaningless? If so I agree. But then what? Just ctb? I would, gladly, if easy to do. But it's not, so are we just stuck?

Sorry, I could have been more clear with the point I'm trying to make. I'm saying that most capitalist countries today make life incredibly difficult for people who are less fortunate (or in my case, people who had luck but squandered it), and it makes CTB even harder for these people because the upper classes need us alive to do menial labor while they get to enjoy their lives.

You raise good point with the permanent underclass. Future worries me because I think the elites will form new underclass out of those deplaced by AI and further bolster it by mass immigration. I predict that the small support systems that still exists to support the old underclass will be largely done away, and instead you will be offered corporatized euthanasia (and of course you will have to pay for the privilege.)

This way the elites get people to compete fiercely for the lowest job while not having to upkeep the support system.

I doubt they'll euthanize us. Who would flip their burgers? Who would clean their toilets?

 

[Gronwell]

I'm 100% with you.
The way the healthcare system just instantly drops you as soon as you start costing more than you're likely to produce just makes me feel even more like livestock.

 

[socksnsandles]

ive had these same thoughts before but ultimately never knew where to go with them because i feel like saying it just feels like trying to justify my suicide

but im glad you said it.

 

[katara]

I spent a year and a few months in "mental health therapy" which felt like nothing, but I guess that's just America. All they wanted to do prescribe me anti depressants even tho I had to ask multiple times for something for anxiety, they refused. Again a very American thing bc they get paid to push Prozac and all those other useless pills.
Sometimes I think maybe I had a chance back then, but nobody is here to help me even when I reach out I get nothing. My own mom doesn't care. I see people on here always talk about how their parents love them and care about them and I feel more alone on here. I am so far behind everyone my age I can never catch up and live a normal life. People on here have opportunities like dating and going out, I don't have anything like that. That just feels like a fantasy I could only dream of. I'd never judge anyone for being addicted to fentanyl and herion, sometimes I wish that was me. I have no happiness in my life, absolutely nothing. I never go on vacation, I never see anyone most days besides my mom. Sometimes I'm hungry because we barely have any food. The only thing holding me back is I'm extremely fatigue everyday and scared of something bad happening after I die. I'm always alone and have absolutely nobody offering me help. Even online I barely have anyone to talk to. I have to ask over and over and ppl ignore me to talk to the normies bc I'm so worthless to ppl. Even on here!
I'm actually really released to see ur post when I made a post about how I hate this country I get a bunch of idiots from better countries telling me they are suicidal even in a country without homelessness. I just feel like most ppl here really don't get what I'm talking about. They don't understand the isolation of American culture. You want help? Sorry that's socialism we don't do that here because socialism is evil. You are struggling in school? Sorry we won't help you that's probably socialism too. You want to live in a community where you feel safe and have healthy food? That's probably communism and we don't do that here because we are "free"