I only live in my dreams

[Szinuus]

I love the time when I sleep and have amazing dreams. Even the bizarre ones. I live in those dreams more than in the actual life, where everyday waking up in chronic pain is so dissapointing.

 

[DreamEnd]

Yeah I'm the same way. All night is bliss and waking up to horror.

 

[deathstar3xplosion]

I love to dream! my dreams are intense and I rarely have nightmares, feelings are stronger and I know people I like, it feels so real. I sleep a lot so when I wake up I'm sad.

 

[yyytry]

Dreams are so interesting to me. Even the shitty/weird ones.
I've never been able to lucid dream, so it genuinely feels like I'm there. And sometimes those adventures really fill in for the lack of adventure/isolation I experience IRL.

I dreamt the other night of a 15' alligator chomping at the back of my raft (in my dream I was just like…ohhhh shit, paddle faster)

 

[suicidalpushpop]

i'm chronically ill and this is my life, i ONLY live in my dreams. i am bedridden otherwise. life is hell

 

[reverse03]

I feel the same. I always see new things in my dreams. I live in my dreams. I can laugh, smile, shout, and hug others in my dreams. But when I wake up, I am nothing. Just a hollow shell of what I used to be. How I wish my life can be just a dream.

 

[LastFlowers]

I love the time when I sleep and have amazing dreams. Even the bizarre ones. I live in those dreams more than in the actual life, where everyday waking up in chronic pain is so dissapointing.

Most of my dreams are invaded by my waking nightmare now..although for some reason some can still tend to be preferable to reality.
Sometimes I wake up (on the rare occasion I even sleep) and desperately wish to go back to the fuzzy, unclear world of my dreams where there are fleeting moments of relief or catharsis..of actions I could never commit to in real life..that I so want to get back to.
I start to cry a minute later when I cannot get back to them.

Other times I wake up screaming.
Because my dream was simply reality in another taunting form. Wholly and completely.
The other day I woke up with a horrible hissing, inhuman sound…a demon like scream trying to force its way through a straw.

I will never get used to this life.
I can't believe it's mine. One and only.

 

[esc_saveandquit]

The dream realm is where it's at. The ever present agony of consciousness subsides and that's where adventures happen. Long or short good or bad the release from it all is the best thing ever.

 

[outrider567]

I love the time when I sleep and have amazing dreams. Even the bizarre ones. I live in those dreams more than in the actual life, where everyday waking up in chronic pain is so dissapointing.

Agree, although my pain is mental not physical

 

[Szinuus]

My only problem with them are those erotic ones because I pee during an orgasm and often I wake up in dry bed. I have it like this since my jump attempt - something is broken in my urina.

 

[Green Destiny]

I like sleeping and daydreaming. Reality is nothing but bleakness and cruelty. Who's to say the real world isn't the true nightmare and dreams are the better alternative?

 

[Samsara]

Isn't it strange that some dreams feel realer and more vivid in every sense than waking life?

 

[Heartbroken2022]

I had exactly the same issue when I just broke up. My life was my dreams (nightmares or good dreams, it depends).
I started few weeks ago partying more frequently, going out and distructing myself in the evenings and I dont see dreams any more (although mornings are still difficult).
I am not saying I am happy now, not at all. This is all a painkinller, until you get bored of this situation as well and your time for your final decision comes (hopefully this time doesnt come for you).
Our mind and our subconsious are very powerful.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Same. My favourite thing to do now is sleep- seeing as it's the closest thing to death I can achieve at the moment. I'm not actually too fussed about whether I dream or not. They fascinate me but most of my dreams are filled with anxiety. It's just the opportunity of not being fully conscious that feels so nice to me. Obviously- same as you- waking from that is dreadful. I'm sorry you are in so much pain.

 

[wait.what]

Usually my depression dogs me in my dreams too, but recently I've been on a course of steroids that's been giving me some entertaining ones. I actually can't really remember what I was just dreaming about—only that it was interesting and not miserable.

 

[Pentobarbital_Plz]

If I can't die, can't I at least go into a coma?

 

[hopelessgirl]

Same

 

[FuneralCry]

At least in my case, temporary sleep could never offer much of a relief as long as the chance of waking is always there. I don't feel comforted by dreams, I can barely even remember them in the first place but I do think that it's true that dreams can be preferable to the cruel, harsh reality of this existence. Having to wake up really is such a horrific thing to me and I'm so tired of doing so. At least to me, perfection could only lie in the thought of eternal dreamless sleep where I'm finally free from everything that this existence has burdened me with.

 

[Sparx]

I'm at the stage where my dreams are better than my waking life. In my dreams I'm in my old fun life not the horrible nightmare I'm trapped in.

 

[Szinuus]

I'm at the stage where my dreams are better than my waking life. In my dreams I'm in my old fun life not the horrible nightmare I'm trapped in.

Too! I often dream about school and some old school friends. Great times.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

I love the time when I sleep and have amazing dreams. Even the bizarre ones. I live in those dreams more than in the actual life, where everyday waking up in chronic pain is so dissapointing.

I have had broken, poor quality sleep for decades and wake up like every 30 minutes and my dreams are 95% anxiety dreams or nightmares, HOWEVER...the 5% of dreams I have that are 'good', or happy, or where Im doing things I used to be able to do before I got chronically ill and no money and had (a few) friends makes it 1000% worth it and better than being conscious. The only time Ive felt truly happy or had fun or felt at peace was during those rare good, happy dreams. Being awake is hell and empty and I am in pain and anxious ALL THE TIME. I wish I could live in those good dreams...theyre all I have now that bring me any kind of fullfilment or jjoy.

 

[GlassAlwaysEmpty]

I'm on medications which make me have a dream every night without fail.

I've actually started to train myself to notice when I'm dreaming so I'm having more and more lucid dreams which can be a lot of fun.

Sometimes having an amazing dream can make the actual waking day that much worse though, just wishing that the dream was real and not my terrible reality.

 

[spinningship]

Lol real life feels more like a dream than actual dreams

 

[Ineedtodie]

Yeah I'm the same way. All night is bliss and waking up to horror.

Waking up is a horror indeed.

 

[nosoul]

I feel this and just experienced it, after waking from decent sleep and a few micro sleeps, it's a sunny day and I feel like shit, no appetite and wish I wouldn't wake up.

I'm obviously not alone, but yes I'm awake now, and I'm dreading my day, don't wish to eat, just taking care of my dogs. Looked in the mirror and I've lost alot off weight.

Despite these discussions it's not so easy to ctb, but that thought enters my head. Weed and psychedelics used to help me but even those pleasures are gone now.

I'm still laying down, delaying the walking of my dogs and dreading the day ahead.

I just want to sleep forever:(