ghostspace
ghost space, ghosts pace
- Feb 10, 2020
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anyone in an okay headspace? I'm sorry, don't want to bother anyone, I just don't want to be alone right now
This is so terrible. I am sorry. I did not understand these long distance attachments at first but now after 3 months on here I too have someone I care about like that. Love even. I am afraid of this phenomenon. But we are here because we don't want to live so we must prepare to lose those we befriend on here. But I can never be prepared to lose a friend.she overdosed. she said she took the pills and then we messaged for a while. she gave me her number to call or text and I was trying to because I didn't want her to be alone. but we're in different countries and I had to use WhatsApp and just when I got it to work she stopped answering
her last message was 58 minutes ago, she took the pills about an hour before that i think. jumbled like keysmashing, like she was losing coordination
thank you for understanding. i really can't express how grateful i am for the support here.
i'm going to try and get ready for bed and be with my cats. i'll keep you guys updated. she wanted me to document it for her, just to let people know she'd left us, i think. but I'm still hoping she'll message or text me
Do not apologize. You have the right to be worried. Think of it this way, if she is in pain she soon won't be. She won't experience pain ever again if she really did OD. I hate pain in other people and I know you must be internally tearing yourself apart. It's hard to lose a friend, someone whom you love. We are here for you and just get those emotions out. Bottling up things will make them so much worse. Scream if you need to. My thoughts are with you and your friend. Im sending so many hugs and so much love in you and your friends waythank you for being here. i'm sorry for being like this, I don't know if im being stupid or not
it's not death, it's just pain that I'm scared about. it's upsetting to imagine someone I've talked to suffering like that
idk what I'd do without this site, i really don't
I'm crying. I'm being so...I don't know. I know she wanted to go, but it's such a painful way to die, if she is, and I feel awful for not figuring out the texting fast enough
we didn't know each other well, I just care so much. about all of you, I don't want anyone to be in pain and I'm scared that she is. no one here deserves to be in pain
You aren't being stupid.thank you for being here. i'm sorry for being like this, I don't know if im being stupid or not
it's not death, it's just pain that I'm scared about. it's upsetting to imagine someone I've talked to suffering like that
idk what I'd do without this site, i really don't