Dark Spring
Sobreviviendo
- Sep 29, 2020
- 116
A few hours ago I spoke with my psychiatrist, we have a video appointment called by covid19 protocol. She constantly tells me that I have to stop being a depressive woman, that I should tell her if I need more medication and I don't know, I don't know if what I'm taking is helping me, I just want to be able to sleep at night and not have more nightmares. I wish I could have a quick death right now.
Everything is getting more and more expensive, I don't have a job and I only receive a financial scholarship for going to college, which I use to pay for my contraceptives, antidepressants and anti-anxiety medication. Now I was prescribed more pills, I don't know how much I will have to spend this month just for pills. No one in my house or family knows about this, I can't ask them for financial aid because I would have to explain myself and I don't feel like it.
Why can't I just stop feeling, stop suffering, stop living? I don't know how I'm putting up with so much. I am grateful to have a space like this to let off steam, my psychiatrist told me that I am completely alone and I don't know if that is true, I consider that I have a lot of company here at SS.
Everything is getting more and more expensive, I don't have a job and I only receive a financial scholarship for going to college, which I use to pay for my contraceptives, antidepressants and anti-anxiety medication. Now I was prescribed more pills, I don't know how much I will have to spend this month just for pills. No one in my house or family knows about this, I can't ask them for financial aid because I would have to explain myself and I don't feel like it.
Why can't I just stop feeling, stop suffering, stop living? I don't know how I'm putting up with so much. I am grateful to have a space like this to let off steam, my psychiatrist told me that I am completely alone and I don't know if that is true, I consider that I have a lot of company here at SS.