I need to die this weekend. Please help me and stick around.

[Kusogaki]

I wanted to ctb for quite a while now. It's the perfect time to do it and i don't act on impulse. Nothing can be done to make my life better or to solve the problems in my life. The problem is to be alive in the first place.

I would like to leave some well written witty note or post to you, but my brain i fucked and I'm nothing but tired.

I don't know if I should do it tomorrow or on sunday, I'll do it during the day, in case a neighbour hears me moaning at night and calls the police.

The method is SN. I've got SN from two sources. I'll take benzos and lyrica constantly during the next days (or maybe oxycodone, but not together with benzos of course). It will go like this:

- fast for 8 hours
- take 800 mg of ibuprofen 60 minutes before the SN
- take 30 mg of domperidone 45 minutes before the SN
- take 40 mg of omeprazol 30 minutes before the SN
- 30 g of SN dissolved in 60ml of water - 3 glasses prepared in case of puking (30g because I weigh 93kg, in the pph it has been stated, that you should take 35g, if you weigh more than 100kg, since I weigh close to that I took it to 30 g. And I take 60 ml of water because I take 30 g instead of 25g and in the pph they wrote, that you can take 50-100 ml of water.

Is that correct?

Please do me one last favour. I never had friends and I want to die badly, but it sucks, when you know , you'll be dead in 2 days, you're just like sitting in death row, waiting for it to happen. Could some of you look in this thread once in a while for the next two days. The latest day to ctb is monday.
I don't want to exist anymore, but the idea of just not being anymore is unthinkable und unimaginable, because you cannot think a state, in which you are not able to think anymore.

I'm afraid of an afterlive, I think it's impossible that there is something like that. I don't have time to read up a lot on that. Could some of you give me some rational reasons why it doesn't exist?

I could try to write you how I feel after taking the SN, but I doubt I will be able to type a lot in this condition.

Beautiful

 

[Sparr0w]

I hope I'm not scaring you. I also wanted to cbt by sn. But it might not be peacful. Maybe it's better to wait until there is a reliable source of N

....the post before this is from 2021, i don't think he's around anymore, bud

 

[nana2000]

....the post before this is from 2021, i don't think he's around anymore, bud

Oh gosh. Rip